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Posted November 21st 2018 at 12:01 PM by SunShine2002
It is like just as I get my life sorted and I start to feel like myself again my idiot of a father does something to sed me tumbling back to my lowest.
Last night on my way home from a great evening at my Christian youth club when I turn the heater down in the car, at this point my dad erupted into anger getting in my face about it. At this point, I got out of the car as it was still moving and walked the rest of the way home. I went straight to my room and had a panic attack I then could not get to sleep and got a couple of very bad hours of sleep. This morning I stayed in my room right until I was meant to leave at which point I went downstairs and put the cat I was holding down, unfortunately, the only space I could put him down was on my brother. The cat put is claws into his knee so I got a lecture about using my rain and how I was being an idiot with an attitude. I am now at school and can't stop thinking about having to face home again.
I can not wait until I can leave because I am never going to recover while being in this house, I don't think anyone could. It has gotten to the point that my biggest trigger is my family and that should not be the case. They should be the ones there for me, not the ones pushing me down.
Last night on my way home from a great evening at my Christian youth club when I turn the heater down in the car, at this point my dad erupted into anger getting in my face about it. At this point, I got out of the car as it was still moving and walked the rest of the way home. I went straight to my room and had a panic attack I then could not get to sleep and got a couple of very bad hours of sleep. This morning I stayed in my room right until I was meant to leave at which point I went downstairs and put the cat I was holding down, unfortunately, the only space I could put him down was on my brother. The cat put is claws into his knee so I got a lecture about using my rain and how I was being an idiot with an attitude. I am now at school and can't stop thinking about having to face home again.
I can not wait until I can leave because I am never going to recover while being in this house, I don't think anyone could. It has gotten to the point that my biggest trigger is my family and that should not be the case. They should be the ones there for me, not the ones pushing me down.
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I am sorry you are going through this at home. TeenHelp is here for you when you need the support and my inbox is always open if you'd like to chat.
I am glad you did have a great evening at your Christian youth club.
Hang in there.
Posted November 21st 2018 at 12:30 PM by MsNobleEleanor
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I am here if you need anything.Posted November 21st 2018 at 01:36 PM by hocus pocus
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Hey there,
I am sorry you have to deal with that. It's hard when your family is toxic and the biggest trigger but please keep hanging in there and try and remember that being around them isn't permanent. At some point you can get away and at that point you might be able to heal. I know that getting away from my mother helped me heal. I still struggle and there are a lot of reasons why but I removed one toxic person and was able to heal. The same can happen for you.
If you need anything please know that I am a PM/VM away.Posted November 21st 2018 at 02:23 PM by -
Hey, I am sorry to hear you are struggling right now and that your family is giving you a hard time. Remember, you don't have to live with them forever. You [I]will[/I] get the opportunity to leave their home and heal the way you deserve to without all the stress of your family.
Remember, you can utilize TeenHelp's resources if you ever need to. Clearly, you're blogging, and that's great! There's also HelpLINK, LiveHelp, the forums, as well as the Support & Advice room within the chat room feature.
Also, if you would like to talk privately or vent out your anger, I am only a PM away. :hug:Posted November 21st 2018 at 03:19 PM by DeletedAccount40
