This time of year.

For me personally this is the worst time of year. This is because at this time of year you have to be greatful for everything because if you are not greatful you are a horible person who does not deserve anything. But the people that are not thought about are the ones who have had a crap year, the ones who actually don't have anything to be greatful for because they would rather be dead. These are the people who are missed out because nobody thinks about them.

For me today I have a day of forcing myself to smile and spend time with my parents/demons. I had a day where I was forced to where a short sleeved shirt so my SH scares were viable to people that don't know I sh. Today I had to be greatful for a crap year. Today I wished I could just not exist because from my eyes that would be so much easier then they pain and suffering I have had to put up with today.