First of all, an update. My parents still don't know about the as Physics and my teachers are now claiming no responsibility for it telling me that it was never on them. That had been a big stressor on me recently and with this happening just before Christmas sent me completely into a meltdown.

Now onto what's going on now. Christmas has been a roller coaster. Christmas time for me has never been great which for the past 6 years has sent me to relapse. This terrified me after all...