hi,

i am writing this because i feel like a fool because i have just been in the chat room and i think that don't make a very good impression to other people about how i am and who i am.
when it comes to men i am a mess but when it comes to girls i find its more like me becoming bitchy for no reason and when i talk to teens i have no idea what to say because i am scared that i will be rejected and used again because of my kindness.
now i want to talk about this crush...

i am stuck between myself and someone else as i am always thinking to myself about if and when would my perfect man come along i mean in our days we still people bashing gay people just because there gay but i have nothing but pain my life and i have had two boyfriends in my life time and a hell of a lot of one night stands but for 2 years i have been single and that one question keeps playing over and over in my head will i ever find my perfect man?
i don't even know if there is a such thing...

i have been going to my counsellor every week and i have been talking to her about the problem i have and face in future and yesterday was great i talked to my counsellor about most things around 20 subjects were brought up but i can tell you its not fun to be someone who is hurting all the time like 24/7 and never has fun but puts on a fake smile to make everyone else happy.
god i hate pleasing everyone and that's why i don't have a bf or any friends for that matter.
i have done a...

ok well i don't know really where to start but i am going to write things about me and i hope that you guys don't mind.

i have moved around a lot in my short life time but i was put into state care when i was 10 years old it was because my mother could not control me that's her words not mine, but anyway i got hurt in state care so much people tried to kill me 4 times without success and it was all because i am gay nothing else can you believe that, anyway i got out of care at 18...