Scream, Aim, Fire!

Feel like going on rant, learnt today that people have been talking about me behind my back. Not too bothered about that since I knew it was happening. Just annoyed really, annoyed with life, annoyed with summer, annoyed with lack of rain, annoyed with people.

Still don't feel like cutting, I suppose it's a good thing, although hopefully the 11 bottles of wkd will remain at 11 instead of dipping down before the night is up. Should be ok since I got paid but anyway.

I still feel quite lonely to be honest, I don't seem to be able to bring myself to help out on the forums, don't get me wrong, I'm learning the technical side such as how the forums work but struggling on giving advice which is not a good thing since I'd like to join the staff at some point ideally if only as a stepping stone to chat mod :bleh: since I seem to spend most of my time in chat with nonsense etc...

Hence the post here, I've always been one who believes that I should not ask for help if I am unable to give it, perhaps the principle of give and take? Nonetheless, I just carry on here to be honest. Perhaps I should stick to chat and blog and continue like a main sequence star - using internal energy to maintain a persona on the outside, the problem will come when it runs out, will I be a red dwarf or explode like a supernova?