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Its been awhile
Posted October 4th 2010 at 02:45 PM by Sin
Havent been here in weeks. I guess today is the first time i stopped running around the place and actually sat down. So i kept myself super busy. Losing myself in everything else. Forcing myself to stop dwelling on how bad i was feeling. But now its time to stop running, energy buzz has finally worn off and im tired.
So god damn tired.
Just back from my therapist. I think thats what made me stop and sit down. According to her im running myself into the ground.
If i keep myself so busy then i dont have time to eat, dont have time to sleep much. If im constantly on the go then no one is going to notice that i didnt sit down to dinner.
But today there was no hiding from it.
She forced me to admit i lost weight. Im not stupid, i no i lost alot of weight. But what she doesnt understand is that i need to lose just a little bit more.
Im playing a dangerous game she said. Its not a game its my life.
So god damn tired.
Just back from my therapist. I think thats what made me stop and sit down. According to her im running myself into the ground.
If i keep myself so busy then i dont have time to eat, dont have time to sleep much. If im constantly on the go then no one is going to notice that i didnt sit down to dinner.
But today there was no hiding from it.
She forced me to admit i lost weight. Im not stupid, i no i lost alot of weight. But what she doesnt understand is that i need to lose just a little bit more.
Im playing a dangerous game she said. Its not a game its my life.
My life
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