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I cut today...

Posted July 5th 2010 at 11:46 AM by shaytaan
Updated July 5th 2010 at 07:00 PM by shaytaan

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Well.... First off HAPPY FOURTH OF JULY

....
Yeah. I cut today.
I've been off it for two months.
But I cut today.

And it felt good.

No, it felt sick

So what if I was on the edge the whole day??

So what if my girlfriend said she didn't care at the moment to go ahead....

I should've been stronger.

I'm weak.

I gave in to something as stupid as harming myself...

I slipped...

No one is strong enough to help me back up...

What do I do??

It's not like she doesn't care...

It's just that she has her own, much worse problems...

than a relapse.

And I what I think the trigger is
is stupid...

I'm with my father's family....
They remind me of my dad.....
Stupid, right?


Yeah.....

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