Having such a crap few days, really don't want to go to school. Got shouted at by my friend yesterday for acting miserable when I didn't realise I was, but I hadn't told my grandad tried to kill himself on Monday. My friends just talk about me behind my back, I've heard them when they didn't realise I was in the room.

Guess I'll be by myself again, the kid no one cares about or wants to talk to :/

You going to get through this, you're not dying on my watch.
I know things are hard and you can push the family away as much as you want but it doesn't mean we're not going to care any less.

ODing isn't helping anything, it just worries us and you can be as stubborn as you want and refuse to go to hospital but please let me help you, let your family in. I promise you now that your family care more about you than this woman you tried to run off with.

Seriously grandad,...

I'm starting to think that you don't care, that you don't want me anymore. In really hOping you're going to prove me wrong, but I'm not sure that you want to.

Exams start next week, 9 in 10 days :/ I'm going to do so badly, another way for my to disappoint my family >_<

RIP little buddy, I'm going to miss you.
I know my parents keep saying you were just a cat but i loved you so much, you were like a friend. I always joked with nan saying i was taking you to uni with me, but you don't know how much i wish i was. I'm really going to miss just sitting and talking to you, I could tell you anything and you weren't going to saying anything back of]r think badly of me and i loved that.

I love you <3 xx

Urgghh stupid conference at school today, they're going to make me think about my future again >_< I'm fed up of it.

Don't want to go, I'm going to be all alone again, no one cares, I guess I'd rather be alone, it's easier that way. :/

Worried...Scared..Have a feeling something bads happened...
Please be okay, I love you, I care about you >_<

Panicking, can't do this :/

I feel so alone, so distant from everything. I'm finding it so hard to hold on, i'm slipping back into the way i was before, feeling like my only escape is Self Harm and Pills.
Friend invited me to a party today but i'm too scared to go, I know people there don't and won't like me, I'm stupid and i suppose theres no reason for them too.

Alone, scared, need help

Panicking, can't breathe properly and i'm shaking.
I feel like something really bad is going to happen but i don't know what. I'm so scared. >_<

Help help help help... Help me

Please, I can't fight any longer :/

I've been so happy for the last few days, idon't know why i'mstruggljng again.
I feel like I'm going to fall apart but I know I have to be strong.

I don't think I can do this
I need you but I'm scared to ask...