Having such a bad time lately, family and friends stressing me out. no one talks to me properly anymore, it's either to have a go at me or moan about someone or something.

I feel so alone and worthless

People say i'm strong but i know i'm not, I'm breaking but no ones around to notice

I'm not strong enough, it's too hard.
I really need this, I don't think tonight is going to be a good one :/

Stupid stupid stupid, need this

What's the point..I reach out to people, I ask for help and I get nothing... If i'm lucky someone talks to me and just has a go at me over trivial little things. Sometimes I wonder why i bother
Maybe i'm meant to be alone, maybe this is how things are supposed to be, maybe i'll get used to it.
I should just stop trying, things are easier that way.

You're stupid and pathetic and everyone would be better without you Charli. All you ever do is ruin everything for everyone, your family and "friends" remind you enough. No one would notice if you dissapeared and most definitely wouldn't care. There's no point anymore, no point to anything especially when you're not wanted..

Well three days until christmas...I'm not excited at all :/
I have such a busy week, working christmas eve until 6:30 and the back at work again boxing day at 6:30am -_-. Going to be working all the sales, i've been given a lot more hours than i'm contracted and i've somehow got to fit in revision for my january exams.

Busy, Busy, Busy, Just breathe..

Finally December, everyones just talking about christmas. It's just going to be stressful and full of family arguments, reminds of how much everyone hates me and why we don't see the family except for christmas.

Mom's just been having a go at me all day, reminding me how worthless i am.
I don't see a point in anything, in christmas, people just disappoint and they wonder why I won't trust anyone. Being alone is easier and it's not like I get a choice lately anyway, just shut up...

Feeling so alone..Stupid thoughts that really need to go away >_<
I can't talk to anyone, no one wants to know and none of my school friends have any idea about my life. They'll tell me that i'm being silly, I always help them but as soon as I even attempt to talk to them they just ignore me.

I'm an idiot, at this rate I don't think I'm going to be here much longer :/

I can't get rid of this feeling, like I don't belong here. My family hate me, they make that clear, I really don't know how to deal with it anymore. I don't want to deal with it, I don't want to be here..

What's the point of being in a place where no one cares, where you're nothing and nothing means anything to you anymore.

I can't make it much longer like this, I just keep thinking of how easy it would be to get rid of it all, and how it would make everything better.

Sitting here thinking about everything, realising that I have practically nothing. What's the point when I have no reason to be here anymore. Everything is such a struggle, no one cares anymore, I try to talk to people and get nothing.
There's nothing left for me..nothing that I want anymore..I think it's about time I went

Oh you want me to 'go die'? Oh okay that's cool I'm glad to know that you won't care... :/