Clarity

On the inside I'm a mess, although I pretend to be so put-together & so sane.
When in reality, I'm just a lost lonely soul.
Waiting for the end to all of the chaos that controls my mind.
I'm nothing now, hollow & filled with pain I cannot erase & memories I'm too scared to face.
My mind wanders as I try to understand everything I cannot change.
The world is so foggy & damp with destruction.
And through my eyes no clarity could be found, for I am just as broken.
I feel alone & I wonder if anyone will ever change that.
If anyone will ever hear my cries for help.
If anyone will ever heal my heart.
I try to find peace in completely letting go & succumbing to the darkness.
I feel safe here.
All the while knowing that true happiness could not be found, the shadows become my clarity now.