So tired

Ugh I'm so tired. Ashley told me last night she still loves me, that didn't help matters... I got no sleep because of this. I have only had a small bowl of shreeded wheat with 1/3 milk and 2/3 water... I'm skipping lunch, and probably having very limitted dinner, hopefully without purging again unlike last night... I'm so dizzy and tired and it's driving me insane.. I still have some control, so I'm using it the best I can. But I can feel ana/mia, whatever taking over really fast... I can't tell anyone though because they won't even listen if I say I'm struggling again... They didn't the first time, so what makes me think they will this time? Nothing. All I can do is continue what I'm doing, untill I'm pleased with my body... Or have lost all control, and maybe tell someone... There's no point in doing it right now... If someone disagrees feel free to say so, I'm just venting :\