I am so lost now. I changed schools, made new friends, and started to get my life back on track. Everything just fell apart. My school friends all turned against me at the end of first semester. I just lost one of my closest friends too! We were just texting and she sounded sad so I was trying to comfort her but she just started going off at me for my alternate coping methods, being goth, and then finally my cutting addiction. She went to my little sister's and my mom's facebook accounts trying...

She doesn't deserve a hug, she doesn't deserve my tears. She doesn't deserve anything from me. i don't owe her anything... Do I?

After thinking about this for a long time, I have decided to tell my life story. I was born on September 12, 1996. I was placed in foster care a year later where I lived in a few homes. I ended up in a small town with a foster mother named Hattie. I enjoyed life at her house. I was a carefree 5 year old girl with no worries. Her sister, Joni, caught my eye. Soon she was bringing me around for play dates. We would go to the beach or eat supper together. I moved into her house shortly after. Two years...

If you've read my recent blog entries, you would know by now that I've always wanted to find a special someone, a sweetheart during the years of high school. Unfortunately, I haven't found her yet...

However, there's two questions I keep asking myself: am I really wanting a girl in my life just to date, or to really fall in love with? Am I really desperate?

It'd be nice to find my one true love in one shot without having to go through several girls to end up breaking...

I give up, everything.I fail at everything, there's nothing I'm good at. I don't know why I'm even here, I have no purpose.

I just make drama,act like b*tch(sorry for the language),& I don't act my age.I make people feel horrible by telling them things.

My younger sister always controls me,she acts like my mom. I tell her to stop she doesn't. She is always telling me about my apperance-&- how I "need" to wear the right clothing.She is only 11 years...

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To my uterus.

COULD. YOU. NOT.

Periods should either be disgusting OR so painful I cannot function. Both is just unfair. So hopefully my uterus will receive this memo. If not then I'm probably up for a long night.

Sigh.

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In order to make a change in my life, I had to do something different that I've never done before. Something that will require a lot of time and patience, but in the long run, yield a lot of benefits for me. So, I decided to do some research, read some articles, and even watch some advice videos on dating, but also a bit of peer bonding as well as life skills/lessons. I also even used Facebook to my advantage and started asking my friends on there about their opinions regarding teen dating/life....

Even after the few days that went by, she still looked like she wanted to be left alone. During the second week, it was her birthday, and I decided to get Anne a meaningful card. She said thank you, but I got the impression that she didn't really appreciate it entirely. Before she ignored me, she told me the day after her birthday that she spent her birthday just playing soccer by herself (she likes playing soccer by the way, and she actually tried out for the team at school and made it). It was...

While the first week with her went by really great, things started to go sour all of a sudden...

During one of the days on the second week at school, I saw Anne really sad, and I confronted her about it. She told me she was homesick, and later on that day, she mentioned that she had recently broke up with a boyfriend due to some misunderstandings with the guy's family. I felt really sorry for her. I had never seen anyone this sad and alone on their own. So, I made a promise to her...