My therapist set up the meeting with my mom today. She didn't go into any details with my mom about what's going to be talked about, but she's going to suggest I am sent for an evaluation and possibly medication. I'm all for the idea, but my mom won't be.

I'm scared, so scared of what's going to come of this. She's going to act all calm to J and then flip out at me. She won't even consider getting me evaluated. What if she wants to check me for new cuts again (J isn't mentioning the...

I did the Reality Acceptance worksheet for DBT, and it was very confronting, and it has opened a whole massive can of worms. I rang Debbie this morning. I had no other option. This stuff is too big, I can't process it. It's sitting in my mind and it's so unpleasant and I just don't know what to do with it.

I want to cut really badly. I've just hit ten weeks and I've set a new goal, of six more weeks on top of that, but it just - it feels like it would help so much right now. It would...

Half of me cares, half of me doesn't. I don't know how to do anything in school anymore, half because I'm a stupid fuck and half because I just don't care anymore, but then I get back my grades and remind myself just how much of a worthless failure I really am.

And half of me still just wants to take the pills, god dammit, if only I had the courage to they'd be swallowed right now. And still want to slice up my arms with the pretty new tool. Though I'm going to the YOUTH Forum event...

Hey, this is just a quick entry (I'm really tired) to let you guys know the outcome of my sentencing.

2 months community detention (electronic curfew) and 12 months supervision. Probably the best outcome I could hope for.

Anyway I'll type another entry on another day when I don't feel so shattered.

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I want to write but I can't sort the thoughts out enough to get the words into any semblance of sense and it's going a bit quick, there's a lot happening, a lot in my head, JUST GO WITH IT, it's all pretty good I feel good I feel good I feel good.

I kept running instead of walking, what adults run? Run to DBT run around in DBT run to have a smoke run back from a smoke talk so much can't stay still positive positive optimistic I live I will live I have lived. Alive.

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I'd heard of Amanda Todd before, but I never really knew her story. I am on the verge of tears. I want nothing more than to give her a hug.
But along with this desperate compassion, I'm so angry. There is a burning rage at the people that made this girl, this poor girl, take her own life. I saw the teens react for it as well. People don't understand when they say "tell your parents, it WILL help" or "It DOES get better". It probably will help, it probably will get better....

Got back from school :/ I decided to make this blog because its a place to basically to whinge and moan about my life without annoying anyone.

No cigarettes today I can't now, my mum is home. I'm glad to say I'm genuinely not addicted, but just do it occasionally for the release. Its a disgusting habit, I know, but it calms me down. Plus, there are no scars on the outside.

My insecurities are really getting me down. Even half way through a conversation with people...

I'm falling apart.
I can't take this anymore.
Really.
I've lost J.
We're going to lose our house.
We're going to lose everything.
And I have no way of escaping it.
I have no possible way of leaving and just running away to somewhere new and nice and secure.
I just don't understand why I have to suffer this way.
Why.
What did I do to deserve this?
I don't understand.
I'm tired of crying.
I'm tired of looking at the white...