Ive got "Dont let nan down" scrawled across my thigh. It was a bit difficult to write from where I'm still healing from last time, but I have found it useful.
My nan is the only person on earth I feel really understands me. I still haven't told anyone, but if I did she would be the first. I know she struggled with depression, so she would get how I feel.
If I cut now, it would be an insult to her, and I respect her way too much to do that. Sitting here writing I can slowly...

Great. Went to pick up my fucking stupid costume for a fancy dress charity thing my school are doing. And I left my fucking card at home. Tomorrow. And I cant ask my mum to come and help out because my card is in my fucking jeans, which by some sick twist of fate, is also where I left that stupid depressing story I wrote which I have been panicking all day about anyway. Isn't that just the fucking best. The shop closes in about 20 minutes, so I cant go home and come back. FUUUUUUUUCK.
I'm...

Yeah, every so often I'm like "oh shit! I haven't blogged in a while! There's nothing for my stalkers to do!" and then I write a blog.

So! I graduated Peer Employment Training with an overall score of 97.9% - and I checked - that's an A+ no matter what country you're in. Unless my source is wrong but I doubt that. I am now a qualified Peer Support Specialist, and can apply for jobs in that field. Go me! Living recovery. Not - not living a dream or anything, this is tough...

Everything is triggering me right now which absolutely sucks. Art class made me want to cut myself so bad yesterday, which art hadn't done that to me in a long time. I wanted to cry and just stopped working for a while until my teacher walked up to me and asked me if I was confused and helped me. I'm so stupid. Can't even do simple art projects right let alone harder ones (and this one wasn't even hard).

My friend got into Wesleyan University. I probably should be happy for her but...

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Yo, what up peeps.
First off, I forgot to tell you all that I'm celebrating the fact that I have a new phone. Sony Xperia Z1. It's shiznizzlyizzit, and my only issue so far (I've had it a week) is that I somehow moved the messaging icon from the task-bar into a folder . . . and I don't know how to put it back on the task-bar.

In therapy-related news, I told Debbie about my strong cannabis game last week, because she asked about the racing thoughts, so I told her I'd...

This has been a really enjoyable, memorable day for me today. I never thought that this day would come fast right at me. Nonetheless, now that I'm officially 18, I'm happy to say that I'm proud of how far I've come in my life so far, and the man that I'm becoming. I have a family that takes care of me everyday, and I also have some of the best friends that I could ever ask for. It's nice to know that there are people out there that do appreciate me for all the things that I do, and all the things...

I'm really disappointed about that, read what I posted before and its a load of self pitying attention seeking bullshit

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Everyone keeps saying "oh it'll get better" and i just think thats bullshit because it never will for me. I will always be fucked up. I've realized that, truthfully, i don't see myself living past 2014. i really don't. I just wish that it would be from a non self inflicted cause because maybe it won't hurt everyone as much but then i don't want it to be from anything other than my self because it seems worse to me.

I thought the panic attacks were done, but then guess

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