Can't do this. Really can't do this. I'm so stupid and won't make it anywhere in life and ugh. Cried like twice today and it put my brain in such a haze. It always makes me so tired and sick feeling to cry. I can't think. I can't type. I just want to curl up and sleep. Getting a headache from the stress I'm under.

Skipped out on therapy on Friday because I just wanted to go home. I hope she still calls me down at some point this week. I she doesn't by Friday I'll probably give in...

Holy crap, it's like January 20th. I've been in respite since the evening of the 8th, so nearly two weeks now. My mood still hasn't lifted and the content of my thoughts is still highly destructive. It will probably be at least a fortnight before I'm properly active again. I am making attempts to check TH at least once a day, but as those of you with your own experiences if very severe depression will be aware, things get overwhelming very fast.

Anyway I thought I'd just update you...

It all hit me again. 65 in science isn't going to get improved because I realized from the start of everything that I can't do it and have more work for that class loaded on top of me to add on to all of it. Fun. Spent the other night crying because I realized how much of a failure I really am. Haven't studied. Any time I think about it I cry.

Math: Apparently what we are doing has a lot of "simple algebra" in it. Simple? God. I can't even do any of it.

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I'm on holiday!
We came to Whinfell Forest for the weekend for my mum's birthday and it's pretty awesome. At the moment I'm just chilling myself at the villa we're staying in with some good music and a nice cold vodka. Bliss!
The villa is alright but seriously, my brother and I share a room and the storage space equates to one shelf and six hangers in a really tiny cupboard. Sooooo yeah. Couldn't really stay here longer than a weekend due to the fact there is no space for anything....

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TeenHelp Newsletter #46 - January 18th 2014 - http://www.teenhelp.org

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