39 days. I made it 39 days before I ruined my streak. My goal was two months. But I guess I did better than I have in a while.

The low hit me hard and hit me fast. It started yesterday. I woke up feeling sad just because I exist. The thought of doing work and going through a day and doing what I have to do just makes me want to cry.

Then today it's worse. Second guessing everything and so much anxiety and random stress. Over everything. Sore and just don't know what...

Well, my night is coming to an end and all I'm doing is sitting here thinking. Why must things go the way they are? Why did I allow things to get out of control like this? Why am I allowing myself to do this? Why am I the way I am? What did I do to cause all of this? How on earth am I going to get myself out of this hole I have dug for myself?

Tomorrows a new day, lets see how it goes...

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I'm so worried right now. We are not having a really healthy dinner tonight and I'm so scared I'm going to get fat. I already know what I'm going to do after dinner, it's just the fact that I'm going to have to eat it tonight!!!! I will work-out afterwards, I just hate doing this to myself! When I eat I feel guilty, it's like saying "It's okay, feed yourself, you're just going to get fat". I wish I never had to eat or my parents would not make me eat... I wish food was not around.... I'm...

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I know I should not be thinking like this... it's just happening. Everything is out of control and I feel nothing is going to be able to help me.

You know what fucking sucks?? I can't be upset. I can't be angry. I can't say anything because he's not mine. I can't say anything because I'm fucking terrified. I can't say anything because I'd rather feel pain a thousand times worse than this, than risk the chance that I'll lose him.

These past two days have been pretty difficult. I have been trying to make sure everyone else was alright before myself. And I did not realize how bad I was letting things get until it was almost too late.
Sometimes I just wonder why this is all of this happening to me? Nobody really sees what is going on with me because I'm acting as if nothing is wrong, I'm hiding so much. But you know, a person can only hide so much for only so long. It sometimes gets very difficult hiding everything...