I had my first kiss today!!! My bf and I walked out the back of the school together and headed down the side of the school towards the street. After a little ways he said he had to get back to the school for drama rehersal. We hugged for maybe 30 seconds, then I'm not sure exactly what he did, but he took his hand and moved my face to be facing him, and he kissed me!! I didn't really know what to do, so I didn't really kiss him back, but next time I think I'll be able to. It lasted maybe 10-15 seconds,...

I don't want TH friends anymore, because I'm so afraid of losing them.

It feels like I'm always the last to find out something is wrong. Overdosing can be permanent and yet people don't seem to realise. And then you act so fucking blase about it. I'm terrified.

I don't want to be friends with anyone anymore.... Because the way things seem to go I'm going to end up losing one of you.

Last night was the saddest night of my year so far.

Wake up...

I've been thinking a little bit about what I'd like to achieve this year. It's hard for me to get out and do and try new things because I'm always so scared - that's been going on since a child (even my teachers commented on it). So with that in mind, here are some things I'd like to try/do this year -

- Go for a one week holiday at Rottnest
- Get driving lessons = go for my P's
- Make one new offline friend
- Go to a pub with a friend

.... there's more...

I'm beginning to think maybe I do love him. I love so many things about him.
He is the sweetest guy! Today we were talking about kissing, which we haven't done yet. He was saying next time we hang out, he could kiss me. When I seemed to agree, he said that what he really cares about is that it's something I want and I'm not just going along with it. And he wondered if I'd be nervous (which I will be) and he seemed concerned about that. He asked if maybe it was better if he didn't tell me when...

Maybe he does. But we've only been going out for 3 weeks. Is that enough? I never thought it was possible.
We haven't even kissed. That does make it sweeter and very sincere that he loves me even though he hasn't kissed me.
But I'm not sure how I feel. I don't know if I could love him yet. I didn't think 3 weeks was enough time. But I was reading things that say signs that you're in love and it just seems like it fits.
I know it's not lust for sure. I'm not sure about the love....

So I've been having computer issues so I haven't been on in like 2 weeks, shortly after I got my first bf. At the time, I felt bad that I got so nervous when he held my hand. Well, it's way better now. Last weekend I watched a movie with him and his family and we cuddled together and I was falling asleep on his shoulder which he said he thought was cute. The same thing happened last night.
Basically we've done almost everything non-sexual except for kiss. But he texted me and said that if...

I misses it...
One of my biggest time wasters

My bf and I held hands for the first time today But I was like way nervous and he texted me later saying so. But he was really sweet and said it's understandable. I just like him SOO much. And I can't help getting nervous.
It's such an amazing feeling, the liking him part. It's almost the same feeling as I get in my stomach when I'm nervous, but it's in my heart and that makes it feel good. It's so new and amazing to me.
I feel a little bad though because of what we've been texting...

My bf is so amazingly sweet! First of all he asked me if it was ok to change our status on facebook or if it was too early. Then he talked to me about holding my hand and wanted to make sure it was ok with me (he even said we could practice). Then he just told me that if he's going too fast for me to let him know! He's just so nice how he asks me and makes sure it's ok with me. He's awesome. And he wanted to let me know that people will probably freak out a little when they see us holding hands,...

Well, I officially have a bf now! We're going on our first date this weekend, but we're officially in a relationship now. We talked about it and we both are ok with people knowing. We haven't even held hands yet, but probably will tomorrow
SOOOOOOOOO excited to have my very first bf!