Well, yeah, i wish i could die.
Why? because my real birth mom doesn't give a shit for me, i am losing all contact with the one guy i need in my life my brother, life at school sucks!, everyone almost everyone puts me down. I don't get it does God hate me so!?!?!?!?!

Fuck all your belongings,
I'm trashing your car.
Shredding your teddies
In the front yard.

I'll burn all our photos,
Lock the valuables away.
And sell them for alcohol
Some other fine day.


Oh, and I'm going to meet Ki this Friday o.o ... I'm a little scared - I wont have anything to say!
Oh well, what happens, happens.
At least he's easy on the eyes

Well this is weird! I think i might be falling for someone else.
I mean he makes me feel so so i can't explain it. I mean i just met him, and his real sweet, i don't know wht do to, we don't live near each other, so.
Can anyone help me out? I really need advise.

Well, yeah i am a depressed kid.
I like so many plp, and sometimes, i am told to kill myself by hateful ppl, and i think abou it n i am so depressed i cut myself to feel a different pain, sad yeah sure whatever.
I am in a troubled life, i have been to foster home to foster home, i am treated so different
like i am a allien.
well peace mom wants me off.

Took two painkillers... drank five centimetres of a 700ml thin bottle of 20% alcohol
Been sipping on jager...

Im trying to get hospitalized, whilst sitting in TH chat.

At least I can still spell!

So, every Saturday my family has a tradition where we sit down and watch a movie together.

My mom chose a movie where a girl was raped...

Yeah... oops.

My bf (almost 4 weeks now!) and I talked about sex. Before, there had been little jokes and stuff but honestly he's better than most guys, my brother included. He makes jokes, but they're usually just about as innocent as sex jokes can be (that sounds kinda wierd, but it can happen). He also flirts with guys (jokingly) and talks about "having sex" with them, but it's all joking around and these other guys don't mind joking around about it either.
Well, today in our texts we were...

i'm sorry i'm not happy
i'm sorry i'm not good enough for you
i'm sorry you cant share secrets with me
i'm sorry i'm so discusting you cant even look at me
i'm sorry i slipped up and self harmed
i'm sorry i cry myself to sleep nearly every night
i'm sorry i can never tell you whats up all the time
i'm sorry you cant love me
i'm sorry i'm fat
i'm sorry i am not the girl everyone expects
i'm sorry i have to pretend to be someone i'm not...

More kissing...yeah, I got into it, lol. we have 2 bus rides together to and from an off-campus site where there's a few electives taken there. anyway, so we were kissing on both bus rides, which are maybe like 7-ish minutes long. We weren't kissing the whole time, sometimes I put my head on his chest and he had his arm around me, that was sweet and nice too.
It's wierd cause just last year I could hardly picture myself with a bf at all, let alone holding hands, hugging, cuddling, kissing....

He already texted me once the other night saying "I love you" when he was going to bed. I didn't respond to that one because by the time I thought about it long enough, I didn't want to text him and run the risk of waking him up.
Over the past few days, I've been thinking about it. After he kissed me today, I thought about it a lot. And I think I do love him.
Well tonight he texted me saying he was going to bed. At the end it said "I love you " I had to respond...