I told some of my mates at school today how this web has helped me. and they just laughed and said i was sad and a idiot.

This sort of thing really gets me down and it made me depressed and annoyed that my own friends would put me down.

i dont want to go to school tommoz. im scared they will gang up on me.

last night i was cutting again on the tummy. i don't know what made me do it but it was really bad now i am in pain and blood got all over bed.

i feel lost and don't see the point in life after 2 years of hell. i can't take this much longer i am slowly falling into a big empty space and i'm pushing away people who care

i dont think i can go on much longer but i'll try to fight through

I feel so down at the moment i seem to be left out of evrything. I haven't been invited to eny of my mates outings or parties and at home i get left out of all talks.
This is getting me really down and making me self harm because i feel like there is no point of me being on this planet.

I have told all friends that i have stopped self harming which is a lie i am not ready to stop and am addicted.School know but i told them to back off.
I dont know what is going o...

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Apparently money grows on trees.
I should buy a jumper,
send her the bill
And email her boss explaining why
it would only be fair.

I ponder whether scars are a suitable look on a receptionist.

Do you get paid to be a bitch? Or is it just your normal 'face'?

haha.
it's been five months and a day.
You'll bleed just to know you're alive... (The Googoo Dolls -sp?-)
And most importantly, for questioning me (Bert McCracken)

i get "e-stalked" by at least three people nowadays. my lovely bestie tricia, my gorgeous cuz jessica, and of course, my mum. i don't mind. i don't feel violated -- i need to be. i guess i need to be looked after sometimes.

TH saved me in a way. because they found me, my personal...

Ahhh





Another update in which very few shall reply
I want to cut again. Win win.
I want to abuse alcohol. Win win.
I want to take the pills. Win win.

Nothing is going to change. Lose lose.

Already made a thread about this, but I'm feeling so good right now, gotta make a blog too:
Well, I've said before to my bf that I love him, always after he says it first. Still, I didn't used to be sure I loved him. We've said it in person a few times, but mainly over text. Today, when my mom was driving me to school, I was texting him and outloud I was like "I love him" with a grin on my face (like usual, lol). And she said she thinks I really do love him. When I asked why, she...

So apparently my bf's good friend thinks I really don't like her. Which is not really true. I'm not that wild about her only because she didn't seem to like me too much or really give me a chance. But I don't think she's mean. She seemed pretty nice and funny when I met her before.
But obviously my shyness around people I first meet has come off to her as me not liking is. My bf asked me if I don't like her and I told him I don't really know her. He said that that's what he said but that she...

No meds... no extra help...
I'm gonna go under.