blah.im kind of excited because he's finally coming back from tampa for hockey. But i don't know i'm not okay, i know i need help. I just don't want to hurt my parents even more. Therapy doesn't work for me and i don't want them to have to pay for me to go to some resort thing. I just know it's wrong what i'm doing and i don't know why i still do it. My dad doesn't care about anything thats wrong with me he only cares about my grades. I tried to tell my mom i should go to the doctor and see if...

What a day!
Havent eaten all day.
Hurting from the bath i had lastnight.
Something in my mind made me fill a bath full of hot water and sit in it......
Maybe its my mate? she is triggering me big time.
"ohhh i slit my wrists last night. ohhh iwant to do weed again, i need it. ohhh i want to overdose again. ohh my lifes so shit. ohhh i know you like him but i fink hees really hott. Your boyfriends a jerk"
RAWRRR.
Y'know what? i give up.
...

okay i haven't cried in forever
but i just relapsed
pretty damn bad
and i just don't know what to do
someone please help me
i hate this

this always happens
when im laying in bed
the urges come back
its hard to explain
i mean its like my wrists are screaming at me to do it to let it all out.
im contemplating whether or not im gonna do it
i know its wrong but it feels like the only way.

okay so if you've read my really long behind blog i posted first you know that i cut and my boyfriend would totally freak if he knew. I mean i really like him and everything but sometimes i just want a boy that can understand what im going through. My boyfriend would be totally close minded if he found out. i live in a small town called Goose Creek in charleston South Carolina and its mainly rednecks which i will confirm i am one but im actually not the same im vegetarian and i listen to rock and...

Thanks to all people that left advice on all my posts they have helped.... sort of

i still feel suicidal but tryin to keep advice in mind.

Im dreading school on monday but i am going to tell tutor bout da bullies after strengh u lot have given me.

Im sorry but havent got courage to tell u the thing ive not told enyone just yet.

I am in a big black hole that is to deep to climdb out of thats how i feel.

Thanks again Liz

okay so my story isn't as bad as some people's and it's kind of long but i'm gonna try and sum it up as best i can.So it started in 7th grade when my friend started cutting and she told me and i asked her why. she said because it releases all the stuff she keeps in. She warned me that i shouldn't do it because i would most likely get addicted to it, i was fascinated because she spoke of self- harm like it was heroine.But knowing the dangers of it i had a lot going on my mom was drinking a lot and...

omg! yeah i know you like the guy who likes me
but thats no reason to make me and my fella break up!!!
you should be happy i have a fella so you can have the guy who likes me all to yourself!
I DON'T LIKE THE GUY
I
DON'T
FUCKING
LIKE
THE
FUCKING
GUY

GET OVER ITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT

i have someone and im happy. Please dont mess it up for me!!!!

F*** not saying anything anymore.
SHE NEEDS TO GET IT INTO HER HEAD
I
DON'T
LIKE
THE
GUY

YOU CAN HAVE HIM!!!!!! I AM JUST NOT INTO HIM

end of.

I never thought I'd feel this way about someone...well, I did but I didn't imagine it would be so wonderful! I feel like I am so incredibly lucky to have such a fantastic, amazing boyfriend. Ever since we started going out I've thought this, but now even more. So I just had one of the best trips of my life. We went to a city 6 hours from my school to see 3 plays. We were there for 2 days. This is how everything went:
Tyler and I got to sit together on the way there, tried to sleep but it wasn't...