i won 250 euro at a quiz last night... i dont know whether to be really proud..or just disgusted at my nerdy self lol!

i was going to use the money as spending money in China, but i think i might get new glasses (ok i cant seriously EVER tell anyone that.. i won a QUIZ and bought GLASSES with the winnings...im such a cooler lik!) i'll just tell people i spent it on cool things...like drugs or something to give me back my edge hehe.


<<does anyone...

right so two days ago i had my meetin wiv head of year and parents and now that mum knows i feel like a weight has been lifted and its amazing

Im goin to see the school counsellor nexted week which means i can actually talk to someone im not attached to in anyway.

I would just like to say that if anyone on here is keeping their problems locked up inside ( parents or anyone in the real world doesnt know) then plez find the courage to tell someone because only good things...

So yesterday was an interesting day. Heard from Tyler at about 11:30. He said he hadn't slept well but he was not in too much pain from his surgery. And he hasn't complained much. We were saying just light-hearted, sweet stuff to each other, kinda being flirty.
Then randomly, my mom decided to take my brother and I to the beach, which is about 1 hour and ½ from our house for the night and the next day (today).
Well Tyler and I were still talking it ended up with him saying he wanted...

anyone know where to buy CD's anymore? other than FYE?

You ever watched or witnessed something that humbles you? not just a face that makes you cry or a stomach filled with worms but a fact that just changes your perspective...even if it is momentary [for you cool people lol jk]. today i'm watching a documentary named, "A No Child Left Behind Report Card." These kids are still kids in 12th grade. They don't have parents or a home. They don't have friends or a clue what love/friendship could be. No resources. You know, it's so easy to say "nothing"...

everyday i look at her and i can't be with her. everyday i eat friggin lunch with her. I eat lunch with her! and she smiles at ME. everyday i touch her hand accidentally and she snatches away with a giggle and blush. everyday she catches me looking at her at that lunch table when she's talking and i just can't turn away. But i know i can't have her and the reason is greater than the both of us. Greater than any kind of interaction her and i can have. I'm in love with God. And not only that but,...

right i really need to let things out so here goes...

got a meetin with head of year and mum i hav to tell mum everythin whast wiv head of year = stressful upsettin

tomoz is study day meanin we work at home and hav meetin with parents and tuor bout school. = talkin bout how im failin in all lessons and the fact that im never happy.

close friend has started SHin and another has got addicted and cant stop= all my fault they only SH because they saw it destressed...

as a musician, shouldn't you respect all [yes all] genres of music. + if you don't, is it disrespectful of a lifestyle or culture?

help me out por favor

As described in my previous blog entry, I've made up my mind to tell my mom of the emotional pain I'm still going through. Well.... mom's coming home today. She's going to be home late, so the conversation will have to wait until tomorrow. I realize that I can't postpone it from one day to the next every day, but this time I'm doing it because my mom will be exhausted and won't be in any state to deal with what I've been waiting to tell her.... I'm also hoping she'd respond.... better if she's rested....

I want to go to heaven a place of harmony.

I am so fed up of living in this hell hole called life.
My head of year is going to have a meetin wiv my mum bout how i am falling behind in lessons and how im not doing work etc he is also going to tell mum bout my SHin and i can't bare to hang round to watch her cry.

My cousin is only nine and is goin to hav to see a theripist after beening bullied and havin some issues.

Everyone i know that has problems...