The last few days my mood has been up and down like a rollercoaster. I've spent three days barely moving from my bed because I felt so ill after the busy days with my family. I've self harmed twice in that time. The one time I did get up I went to buy pills. I haven't taken any but I needed them as a security net. Just in case I get desperate. That sounds awful but that's where my mood is right now. I was binge watching Supernatural and feeling really awful and thinking about suicide, so I got drunk...

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I've marked two weeks on the Staff Calendar. The pain in my neck and back is spreading to my legs and feet when I spend too long sitting or lying down. Moving about seems to help. I spent today helping mum move her office, she kept telling me to watch my neck and don't lift anything too heavy or push myself too hard. It wasn't too bad, I took some paracetamol so I think that definitely helped to keep it at bay when I was carrying boxes and setting stuff up.
Got into the car to come home and...

I went on a steam train, and had chips for lunch, and Indian for tea, and hung out with my sister and took selfies with her and it was fun. And we went to the slate museum, and we watched Frozen Planet.

I'm really tired. I have a nine am lecture and I'm not sure I'm going to be able to make it. But I'm really glad I saw my sister because I hadn't seen her since christmas. She drew me a picture to put on my wall.

My mum is here. Instead of my usual Monday routine of getting up around 10, studying quietly, watching some cartoons and going to my lecture at 4, I have been up since 8, cleaning, and in half an hour (at 11) she's going to pick me up, we're doing lunch, she'll drop me at my lecture at 4, and then I think I'm going over for tea as well. That's too much. I'm already exhausted.

On the plus side my pikachu onesie arrived and it's the best texture ever. I was scared because my charmander...

We're swapping presents tonight. I hope my friend likes his.

I miss my ex.

I feel sad and lonely right now so I'm watching Lion King sequels.

We played d & d last night. It was really fun. I enjoyed myself. I laughed a lot. Two of us are autistic so we had a hand signal to make if anyone was gonna screech loudly or shout as part of the game so we could cover our ears, and I could use stim toys without feeling embarrassed (I had my dratini plushie, a tangle and clicker toy and my friend lent me a ruler with beads in which made a brilliant sound when you shook it). And I had pizza. I didn't finish my pizza but I ate most of it without...

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I'm either flaring, or I've come down with a bug, or I'm in sensory overload. Or all of the above. I feel rotten.

I promised I'd play d and d today. It's in my house so I really can't back out. I'm so anxious about it even though we played last week and my friend said I did really well.

I'm so tired.

I missed my lecture this morning because I couldn't get up. I feel slightly better now but that's probably because I've not done anything all day.
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This week was mostly okay. Snow day on Monday so some of my friends and I all hung out. The rest of the week progressed relatively okay. Just have political science and some work training stuff to do this weekend unless I want to go ahead with English work.

Got my medication dosage raised significantly today and that's without me even telling her just how bad I've been.
Went to Stop and Shop to go shopping with my roommates and at the end checked the pharmacy to see if my...