Once it has happened, it's happened and nothing will ever change that. Just wanted to get that out there.

I'm still getting minor pains, but still pretty sure it is just heartburn. If not, oh fuck :P

There's been... two, three guys I've been chatting to a bit from OA that I'm actually kind of interested in knowing more about. Considering there's probably over 50 people on my list that's kind of sad, but my god there are so many tools on there. Then again, there are many...

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It bothers me more than a little that you can't properly delete posts or profiles on this website.

I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm lyin' here tonight
And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain

How could this happen to me?
I've made my mistakes
got nowhere to run
the night goes on
as I'm fadin' away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me?

Everybody's...

I can remember the very first time I cried How I wiped my eyes and buried the pain inside All of my memories - good and bad - that's past Didn't even take the time to realize

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Starin' at the cracks in the walls Cuz I'm waiting for it all to come to an end Still I curl up right under the bed Cuz its takin' over my head all over again

It bothers me more than a little that you can't properly delete posts or profiles on this website.

Tyler and I have had to agree that we aren't going to have sex this year.
On Tuesday night, in the car my mom talked to me about sex. She'd always thought I was waiting till I'm married to have sex because I used to be so articulate about that. Now, I've said that I'd like to live with someone before marraige and she was beginning to think that Tyler was pressuring me into doing things, like touching, that I didn't want to do. The thing is, he's not pressuring me. He knows that I have to...

Had no time to update the blog. Everything went well with my mom. She was very understanding of what I'm going through...... I felt a little bit guilty about not trusting her enough to tell her about what's troubling me... But I shouldn't. I shouldn't put myself down with this...... I actually feel alright today. I'm getting started on my homework. Spring break begins next week, and I have to finish my studies on a good note.

Also, I want rollerblades for my birthday. Mom says...

It bothers me more than a little that you can't properly delete posts or profiles on this website.

really good video i found on youtube..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SJF50kwwRJE&NR=1

Sometimes we forget the influence and the responsibilities we have.