So, it's been a while since I've blogged. I feel like I say that every time I post.... Anyway, I've been staying at my sister's house a lot in the past week and as much as I love being there, it's also just teasing me that I can't move out. I wish I could just go there and stay there, not have to come back to this house. Then again, I don't know what I would do without TH..not to mention my comfy bed that I've been sleeping in for the past 5 years. *sigh*

Moving on, here's a little...

Sometimes, we experience things that change us, forever. I've experienced a few of these things myself, like most of us have.

I want to talk about a significant event in my life today. Sure, reading the Harry Potter books changed my life; now I am able to say that I've read them. Learning to drive a car changed my life; now I can get to work easier. But sometimes things that are less obvious have greater impact on us.

I grew up alone, believing only in my own demons. Believing...

OK so yesterday I only had a 1/4 bottle of water. No calories and I walked into town from school from there I walked home. In total I walked 5 miles.
On top of that at one in the morning I was doing sit ups and press ups etc until 3 in the moring.
In total I burned off XXX calories.
Im a stupid fat bastard im paying the price for it today as everytime I stand up I sway in dizziness.

ok,so im new to this site. i have no idea what to write in this blog, and i doubt anyone will find any of what i have to say interesting. so i decided i'll just write about whatever random crap comes into my head, and see what happens.
Through everything ive been through in the past 2 years, ive wanted to believe in life so much, that everyone finds their true happiness, and to believe in kindheartedness, and that no one will screw me around. but thats not the case really. ive been screwed...

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Okay, I've decided to do something with my blog. Wether you read it or not is up to you. I personally wouldn't find this very interesting, haha.

So for the next month, or however long it takes me to lose a few pounds - and keep them off - I'm going to be tracking my weightloss here. ^^

So, I'm 14 years old, am around the height of 5'2, and weigh XX pounds currently. I don't want a certain number, I want an overall better appearance.

And yes I admit to...

Oh things I would do if I could fly! Actually I can't think of anything I would do that I can't already do now. I just like the sound of "If Only I Could Fly". Anyway I hardly ever see someone posting blogs on TH so I thought I would just to be different!

It’s started again, that feeling, that absent feeling.
I don’t understand God, why me?
Why am I the victim of Depression?
Why am I the victim of Anxiety?
Why am I the victim of Bulimia and Anorexia?
Why did those people hurt me, and touch me?
Why am I the victim of feeling this consistent nothingness?
Why am I the victim of mental illness?

I am almost ready to give up.
My family can't be fixed, it's to late.
My past can't...

Day 3:

I'll keep it short and simple. Today was a good day - I felt in control. I missed her at times, but I'm def recovering

DAY 2: Getting used to it

Alright so today was a bit different. I still thought about her alot - but I went outside alot more, and I tried to enjoy myself. Ofcourse things are still really hard, and I still miss her...but hopefully this is a good sign for things to come. I talked to her a few times, but not about anything important, and it was very brief. Pretty good day, I guess