First full day of school today.

Listioned and concentrated
Laughed
talked
smiled
hugged
gave girlfiend advice to best guy mate.
Ate small bowl of pasta
tons of pringels
5 strawbury long sticks of some sweet

All of my happy emotions= faked
My mini binge on crips and sweets = to cover up feeling fat to friends

Why am I at faking point again
Why do I feel depressed again
Whats the point in...

Today was alright.
Tommorow is boring hanks to the lessons. = science, maths,english,pe and german.

Stressed out
feel fat
skipping meals AGAIN
cant sleep
tired
worried
scared
trying to beat urges after given in previous 2 nights.
annoyed
depressed
the list goes on and on

My sister has been having doubts about her and her boyfriend for a couple of weeks now. Today she rang him and he said that somthing was up to do with him but is refusing to say what untill tomorrow which is our first day back at school.

This has made my sister really upset and worried. Then she went on facebook and a girl was asking chris what they where doing on sat making my sister even more uhappy.

Im soooo worried bout my sis now as in the past she has dealt with...

Like my title right ?
Megan for president . Oh sure you'd all like to see that, hehe. Or not, but hell, Barack is doing just fine, let's not screw it up.

Okay, so back-to-school means that I'm back into being a wacko emotional train reck. Eh.
But so far so good, didn't say anything too stupid or didn't get involved in anything too shitty. I've learned to think twice before opening my mouth ( most of the times, hehe.) and I think it's beneficial in many ways.
Not...

Today I have buned myslef for the 1st time and cut after 13 days of being SH free.

But whast I was helping mum prep the patatoes for lunch mum told me that the therepy group had excepted the 3rd request for them to see me.

Im so scared and its freaking me out and is the reason I cut today as I can't stop/control the nerves inside me.

I know that its good that im finally getting some professional help but it means mum will find out everything this will upset...

It was really fun we named ourselves the sugapumps and all my mates stayed awake till 6am and I was awake till like 9:15 and we all got up at 10:45. It was brill we did makeovers and laughed and talked and cried with sadness and laughter. I tell u why with sadness when I know some more details.

I ate alrightish there I didnt have any tea really just a prawn craker and a spring roll but I did eat 10 chunks of chocolate and bout 10 marshmeallows so that made up for it.
Sooo tired...

Boredom has overcame Megan.
But unfortunatley, she is too lazy to post something smart and useful so she decided to answer some random fun questions for people to get to know her better!
(I'm talking about myself by 3rd person again xD)

Is there anybody you just wish would fall off the planet?
How can someone fall off the planet?! I mean, the earth is not flat...duh!

Name one thing you worry about running out of.
Cotton swabs...sooooo frustrated...

My mum has just forced me to eat 4 roast patatoes, 1 and a half handfuls of runner beans, 7 small carots, 1 yorkshire pudding and half a plate full of beef plus a big portion of pudding. She said if I didn't eat it I wouldn't be able to go to the sleepover which my closest mates are going to.

I hate her why has she black mailed me. I know I haven't eaten much this week but I was eating enough and now I feel sick and can't eat alot at the sleepover because if I do eat alot at the sleepover...

Ugh.
I've been a drag today, honestly I can't even stand myself.
Been hitting my head against the wall for the past 25 minutes trying to clear things up.

Oh well, life's life I guess.

Much love,
- Megan

So im happy bout this as 4 of my friends and I will have a chance to catch up and it will take my mind off the non stop urges to SH.

Im worried bout this as it means I cant skip/ eat little which I have begun to do again

LIZ

p.s I dont know what to wear as it is all in the wash afater being worn on holiday.