T-I-R-E-D.








& hungry.

3 day suspension . Eh .
I'm not a nerd and don't particularly like school, but forcing me to stay home is not something really cool either. Especially when most normal people are IN school.
Apparently, I am a rude and ungrateful student. According to my french teacher that is.
I couldn't help but laugh my butt off when one of my friend, as she was trying to say "election" accidently said "erection" (in french but, eh, adds up to the same in english, hehe)...

What we had, did it mean anything to you? Did you really care about me? All the 'I love yous' and 'I miss yous' are just meaningless words or days gone by. Those whispers you said didn't mean anything. When you said 'let's get married' you didn't mean it, you probably never will. Don't feed me lies. I need the truth! I know about the girl and what you did. It hurts, it really does. Don't tell me that you hated being hurt by all those girls and then tell me you won't be the guy that hurts me. Guess...

Death, it lurks around the corner. Every day is just another day,but death looms in the shadows. It gets closer each and every second. The pain starts to get stronger. It gets to the point where you can't bear it anymore. Death starts to take over your body. The pain courses through your veins and your heart races faster. Death is staring you in the face and you can't fight back. This fight is being lost. Faster and faster you're falling into the darkness and you'll never return. Death has won.

Ahhhh!!! Right now....I'm pretty much a mix of and
I mean HOLY SHIT NUGGETS!! I'm so beyond excited I can't begin to tell you all how happy I am right now. I've been imagining her and her hubby starting a family since before they even really discussed it. I can't wait to be an auntie!!

I'm actually breaking my promise by telling all of you this...cause I told her I wouldn't tell a soul. But luckily for me I have you guys to tell and she'll never know!!
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I'm in a strange bubbly mood where I don't want to sit down and I have the urge to talk. (which for me is a rare thing since I'm never talkative) I wake up this morning and I was going to work out for a bit...but as soon as I did 5 crunches, I realized I was hungry. So I open my door to go downstairs and my cat is sitting by my door staring up at me with a slight craze in his eyes. I know that look. That's the look he gets when he's hyper and wants to play. I growl at him and immediately he takes...

I'm giving up. I'm giving up on holding my head up high, giving up on not saying goodbye. I'm giving up on all hope, I'm giving up on my new ways to cope. I'm giving up on caring what they think, I'm giving up when things start to stink. I'm giving up not because i don't care, I'm giving up because it's just not fair. I'm giving up on holding back my tears, I'm giving up on my deepest fears. I'm giving up on all my hard work. I'm giving up on the past, I should have known this wouldn't last. I'm...

I'm Ismael.My motto is to live half for myself and half for others. My late father told me one day if you split in the air, be sure at least you will receive one drop falled on your face. Now i can understand well my late father. I have no way i'm making my way while i'm going in righteousness.

Get friends but be wise, live for others but, be carefull; My vision oh my vision is too great. No one can withdraw it from my mind.

Hope , we know eachother but for good,teach...

Cause he's awesome, and will be remembered.
Dirty Dancing is a classic.

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I NEED TO GO BACK. I'm slipping away again, faster now. I don't want to lose myself again. I don't want to lose everything i worked so hard to earn back. But i NEED help. I don't NEED medication. I NEED the truth not the anti-depressant coated fairy-tales.
I'M TIRED. I'm TIRED of being out of it. I'm TIRED of being angry at myself for things that aren't my fault. I'm TIRED of working my ass off. I'm TIRED of getting let down. I'm TIRED of being broken.
I'M PISSED. I'm PISSED at my mom....