Oy, sailor !
I'm in a REALLY good mood right now, like, my cheek muscles are sore from too much smiling.
Oh my, where does this positiveness come from ? Could it be because of him ? Because of the possibility that I may, just maybe falling for him...Woah, who knew I was actually human ?! That I actually DID feel. I have a heart people, ain't it amazing ? I'm not only a lump of tissue, bones & bitchness, how awesome.
Yup, sooooo, who is this guy ? (Holly,...

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My first blog post. Essentially, my first journal entry. What better way to record my emotions in a site where no one I know will ever find it? Too many times have my personal emotions been found and placed in the harsh public light, but that should not be the case here. Or at least I hope it won't be. I guess that's a risk I'm willing to take at this point.

Maybe I'll update every day, maybe every week. Not sure at this point, this idea of writing down my naked thoughts feels...

The breeze from the ocean is cool on the skin. It creates goose bumps and sends chills down spines. The dark of the night sets in. Stars shine bright overhead. The moon casts an orange glow over everything. Waves begin to crash against the rocks as the wind picks up. The spray of the waves is picked up and carried in the wind. The wind is howling as the clouds roll in. As dark as the night was before it becomes darker, more fierce. Low rumbles are heard in the background. They begin to grow louder...

Woahhh, so it's been a few days since I last posted something on my blog, I guess I've been pretty busy...or simply not in the mood.
I am, though, in a rather good mood right now, I guess I'm simply glad that this week started off better than last week. Last week was hell, honestly, it was horrible.
Lovely locker/body drug searches time again, how I adore them. u_u
Don't worry, I am still absoluteley clean, but considering my "past", the drug searches are all part...

Obviously life hasn't been fantastic lately.

My abusive dad found out about my cutting. That was freaking FaBuLoUs. My parents chucked me into counseling. Whatever...

I've been more depressed and suicidal than anyone ever should be...

I don't really know what else to say...

Smile, I'm sure as hell trying (& failing)...

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Every night I lose sleep. For every second of sleep I lose I think of you. Your eyes and the way they light up every time you see me makes me smile. That smile of yours could light up the room the way the ends of your mouth curl up and stretch for miles across your face. How you light up the room when you walk in. the cloak of black you wear doesn’t make you invisible. You stand out even more in my mind because of your black cloak. I lay there and reflect on moments of the past. Those moments you...

Totally just quoted The Hills, how awesome am I ? Hehe, no, but my title seriously has a purpose.
I've been pondering upon something lately (cause I have nothing better to do, hehe).
Here's how it goes...:
What is up with girls referring to one another as "bitch", "hoe", "slut", etc etc ?!
We are all guilty of doing it, I myself go upon calling some of my best girlfriends like that but it's still kinda weird...nay ?
Some girls we...

I totally feel like a bitch right now.
Last night I had an argument with my roomate and, as always, things got a bit out of hand and I actually ended up making her cry. Okay, crying is just crying you might be thinking but when you know that she cries because of you and ONLY because of you, yeah - not cool.
She wanted the truth, sure, but somehow my truth always hurts more than I want it to. Am I that harsh with my words ? Ugh, I dunno...but I seriously need to learn how to be honest...