I regreted the self harm no more post put too much pressure me so instead I am just doing it this way still trying but this will hopefully remove some stress.
this is in referance to my last post it does not mean it's the last post I will make in this blog.

BAN Rishloo
FABULOUS? YES
GENRE: Progressive Rock/Experimental Rock

Absolutely wonderful! With Tool listed as an inspiration, this is one new band with A TON of promise. If you have a few hours to kill and some silence to fill, these are your guys. With only two CD releases thus far and HQs on the west coast, I couldn't ask for any more! Catch these fellas while they're young, because they won't stay that way for long.

http://www.last.fm/music/Rishloo...

Do I really need to tell you this is triggering? Or can you figure that out on your own? That's what I thought.


Hurt myself again today, got the little safety pins out and scratched my skin red. I could see the blood poking out of my skin. They were longer this time, three times as long to be exact. Red and raised and angry. So angry. My mother and I have been having communication issues and she blew up at me (I most likely blew up at her in turn, it's not all her fault)...

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Or at least a crush, or something, but there's this girl Sasha who goes to the same meeting as me, and I noticed it the first time. She is super adorable! Just so cute! And I got to sit next to her today, I've never felt like this before. I just really want her to like me too, even though I won't be able to start anything. It'd just be nice to at least be friends, too bad college is in the way. But I'll have to keep an eye on her, it's a shame that there's no easy way to know if she's even...

well idk how to explain it all since it's been happening for months now...

Lately i feel like i'm...disgusting...because i'm Bi. I grew up in church, nd i know God exists and i've experienced him, but i feel like i'm disgusting to him. i can't really help that i find sum girls attractive nd i know i have the capability to fall in love with them...(i'm not the kinda bi who just wants to hook up wit girls, or who wants attention)

Only a handful of my frends know, as in...

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Things have been strange lately. On the surface it seems like everything is perfect; I know where I'm going to college, my grades are doing just fine, my family isn't in any horrible financial struggle, and I have hours and hours of free time to fill. But for the first time today I scratched myself knowing full well that it was self harm. I had always done it before when things just got way too intense, left scars on my arm that are still here from 6+ months ago, but it was always an automatic...

Oy, sailor !
I'm in a REALLY good mood right now, like, my cheek muscles are sore from too much smiling.
Oh my, where does this positiveness come from ? Could it be because of him ? Because of the possibility that I may, just maybe falling for him...Woah, who knew I was actually human ?! That I actually DID feel. I have a heart people, ain't it amazing ? I'm not only a lump of tissue, bones & bitchness, how awesome.
Yup, sooooo, who is this guy ? (Holly,...

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