At least Ailin's happy. He's being purry across my lower stomach-ish region.

We kinda broke up. I was mad that she told my brother about my overdraft, so I said if she had no excuse for it, she should leave. She didn't even bother to try and excuse it. So she's gone now.

She took Spider. I was annoyed, I wanted Spider to stay. I'm scared Ailin will get lonely without him. Spider's going to a house that already has two cats so there's no chance he'll be lacking feline company,...

Meh, stooff.
I regret going to my sister's birthday. Sure we had good food, but it made me sick later. And Laura keeps getting mad at me for stuff I said there.

I have still been doing the exercise thing, same stuff each time, twice a day when I remember. Although the days have no clear line separating them. There's no work to go to, no university to study at, just endless, endless, at home wishing things would change. Just a small change, just someone to take the risk and hire...

Well, I did exactly the same stooffs this morning as I did yesterday afternoon. I'll repeat it this evening before bed.
If you read the former blog post, you'll see I do 20 of each thing. I've given up the skipping as a bad job for now, it's too hot and I lack properly supportive bras.

Oh yeah, gymnastics managerial peoples like what I'm doing to the website so I got the 100% go ahead. I'm pleased and proud. I'm going to make it as good as I possibly can. It's already looking...

Stoooooooffs!!!

20x wide arms press ups (from my knees lmao)
20x uppers front
20x lowers front
20x uppers right
20x lowers right
20x uppers left
20x lowers left
20x uppers back
20x lowers back

Total of ~50 skips. ~17 double jump, ~30 single jump.
I was aiming for a much larger amount of skips, then I discovered that: 1. My bra is not supportive and 2. Nor was my bladder at that time for some reason.
So I gave...

Woodcutting and Firemaking are now 79.
175k til 80 woodcutting.
173k til 80 firemaking.
And I want to be a member for the double xp weekend!!!

I was meant to start my skipping thing yesterday, but I had coaching so I figured it could wait until today. I finally hung out the washing though, three days after it got washed .

Meant to do the dishes today - it might happen. We're going to Sam's 18th at Cock and Bull tomorrow and need to give her something,...

I went to bed last night, praying to God that I would wake up with a different life. To wake up, cranky from going to bed four hours ago, and mad at life because I had to go to school at deal with all the people who hated me, and hang out with the few people I considered friends. This is what I wanted.

Instead, I woke up to watch my husband go to work. Fed my two month old baby girl, and went back to sleep. My day consisted of taking my dog outside, screening the few calls I even got...

39k from 79 woodcutting.
44k from 79 firemaking.

Goal is 85 for both so I can kill evil elder trees the next time I'm a member.
Total level currently 1419.
Total experience ~11,176,220

I haven't logged out for a few hours though.
Woodcutting and Firemaking are now nearly 100k ahead of fishing. Fishing was my highest level for nearly a year.

Anywho, we're going to mow the lawn or something.

So, I deffinately like G., I dont like M. anymore, but now I also like G ans M's friend. Im messed up, I cant stay on one person. seriously, someone could be sweet to me, and Ill start likeing them. Then Sumpad had an "episode" as I like to call them. Oh well. I was there for her, and she was there for me. Im glad we is friends, cant wait till Nashville...

I am going to do this again

Self harm NO more

8-13-06 to 2-19-10

Grave stone self harm you are NO longer welcome in my life Christ RULES and YOU are NOT part of it.

I want to get away from here right now. I am so sick of HIM. He came back again last night. I already have insomnia, he's just making it worse. I've tried to do everytbing I possibly can to keep him out. The fucking snow was helping for awhile. Should I just runaway from all of this? Cuz I'm ready too. Would that be a good thing? I think it would be alot of the time. And the thought of it just makes me want to do it more and more. I want to be happy and not have to be afraid for the rest of my life....