Well, I thought my dads house was going to get better, turns out I was completely and utterly wrong. -.- My brother ditched me with my baby brother, im at the library to be on here, and Cameron keeps pulling the cords and screaming and touching everything. 2 year olds are realy starting to piss me off. I'm bored as shit, and I hate it when little kids don't stop crying. I don't know what I'm doing. I'm going insane. My nightmares are getting so much worse then I thought they could, and worse, I...

Umm.. Yeah Fathers Day is this sunday i think?
And i could care less, he could die for all i care.

And last night it finally hit me.
I finally know why i could never accept my dad's "love" i wouldn't hug him back, didn't like him touching me and just wanted him to leave me alone. And why i could not remember a thing from back then.

I think he like.. ya know.. molested me and stuff while i was younger.
Like he did the same thing to...

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Better or not here I come. So move out of the way mother cause I'm going out in the world head on. I don't need you to shelter me and not everything can be about you so just chill. I can handle my own. I can finally live a day without SH. You were never there for me and you still aren't. But...that's fine cause I'm healing and I'm ready for whatever you want to dish out. I'm done taking crap from you so move out of the way cause here I come!

I have found the whore in you
why Can't I tell you no
Time will show, the last word is for me
If you fail to see the problem we have, one room full of walls
I will try until the last drop falls

Last Drop Falls - Sonata Arctica

I am still a new member but I wanted to get some stuff down in a blog, who knows who'll read.

It feels weird being a nobody. All my life I've been someone important, someone recognisable but now I'm...

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I never in a million years thought i could look forward to the weekned this much


To say im happy is the biggest understatement ever!!! I miss this..i miss this feeling of being happy. I no its only for 2days before it all starts again but damn it im going to enjoy these 2 days!!!!

Fri night: PJ party! Popcorn, pizza's and pjs! Friends marathon all night with the coolest people ever..i love it!!!!

Saturday:...

Today has been so incredibly awesome and I've only been up for two hours.
1am (still counts as today!) and I couldn't sleep so I got up, crept ninja-style into the hall and put the internet on hoping to talk to someone. The person I wanted to talk to wasn't there but someone I wanted to talk to more, was.
We only talked for an hour but it just made me feel SO much better. Things have been a little awkward the past few weeks on account of a few things but last night was just...right....