Struggling to find a reason

Any reason

Even one reason

To hold on

Note to self: Its not worth it

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Why are the flashbacks so vivid???
I'm safe (for a little bit)
No father no cousins
Out of place out of mind right???!?!?!?
Thats what Shelbz said but its not true!!
The flashbacks worsened!!
WHY?!

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I was kind of looking forward to one last visit to my old school to see my friends after the summer before I start college. Now I'm not sure I'm even going to go.
I never really considered the possibility that someone I cared about could actually judge me. I was having one of those random comment-conversations with a friend Scott last night. In it I mentioned that I had an almost-half-girlfriend (SO complicated at the moment, we're trying to work it out) and he said that wasn't...

Forget this, anger is a poor motivator, don't post when angry >.<

My apologies Ronald :(

I'm sitting right now on my bed with my duvet around my shoulders. It's cosy but the weight of it on me hurts SO much.
It's so typical, we went the whole holiday without any accidents -apart from my dad getting a small bruise from being on a red-route cycle track- and as we were cycling to the car to attach the bikes to the roof and go home, I fell.
Well, more flew than fell
And I don't even know what happened. Some friends think it was a suicide attempt and...

I HATE CUTTING
i hate it
i hate it
i hate it
i hate it
i hate it
i hate it
i hate it
i hate it
i hate it
i hate it

It makes me feel so sick and broken :"(

"I don't want to cry
anymore,
I don't want to feel like
lifes to seedie anymore,
I don't want to be told
lies anymore,
I don't want to see the skies in
gray anymore,
I don't want the pain to
be anymore
.
I want to be happy and
warm
but never so Cold,
I want to dance in the
rain,
not feel pain

I want to be held...
Not against my will...

I want to see happiness......

Scared.
So so scared.

She's scaring me...
She has so much going on in her life...
She's breaking down mentally and physically....
I just wish I could hold her til she feels safe again....
It's not my place to tell whats wrong but....
I just wish she wouldn't hurt anymore

That HE wouldn't hurt her anymore....

I love her soooo much....

But I wish she would get help...

She needs help
...