I have been doing not so well recovery wise for ed , im going to do treatment for 6 months
only then after that im going to be probably done with treatment !!!!!!!!!!

So i am truly comitted to recovery i really
am and i want to get better i dont like being sick i loath that and i dont want attention by staying sick !!! i honestly want to get better soon really!!!

I fight hard for ed recovery

an doing my best to get better for me and...

I feel like my life has been feeling so out of control
lately I'm getting worried and im trying to at least get some control over my life back!!!


There had been alot going on this whole summer,but it is still a summee where im growing im maturing into a young women but also learning lifes little lessons to!!!!


I had been involved in a car accident on Aug 4th

I was not driving but i was walking then i dicide
to go home...

So yesterday was my first day back as a mentor. I took a group of girls out for ice cream and then to the cinema. I gave out advice and hugs...i cheered people up...i sorted out arguements...i made them laugh...i handed out my number again. Straight back into the swing of things like i was never away. Life goes on.

I came home and crawled into bed and cried.

But i took the first step.

Maybe tomorrow i wont cry.

Today i will.

There is this new girl at school. She makes me feel all shy. I try to get to know her but she doesn't talk much and my bff does all the asking. I kinda like her like her, but I am still deciding iif I'm bi or not. What do I do if I like her alot?

sooo it has been awhile. my summer was great i was with my boyfriend most of the time. now i need to spend time with friends. school is tomorrow and i am a bit excited. today is my brother's birthday, but he is asleep so yeah. lmao. i haven't been crying nearly as much as i used to. just when needed? lol. man, i wanna go driving, i need to get some more hours on my permit card. can't wait to get a jo and a car. (: haha this is just full of random stuff, so i think imma stop here...thanks for reading....

Today was my first day of life as a college student.
Not exactly my best day either if I’m honest.
After lunch I had Healthcare Numeracy which I almost fell asleep in at least 6 times. The college has no air conditioning. And the windows don’t open. The result of this is either a classroom that could make you pass out with the heat, or a classroom that Eskimos would find cold. There is no in between. Joy. Luckily the tutor took pity on us and we got a half hour break instead of 15...

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The pain, somtimes I run to my room and cry because its too much. I'm the middle of three and get this me and my younger sister were mistakes. She was a miracule and me, well, I can sing I can draw and i try so hard to make my parents proud of me. My younger sis is favored. I take her blame each time unless it is 100% obvious. I feel like the sun is poisenous and the dark is my healing. Happiness is poisen killing me as I try so hard to find it. Depression is the venom killing the pain, saving me,...

Feeling worthless, self destruction
trying to take control of this.
Find a purpose, reconstruction
write it somewhere it will stick.
And the stars are hiding now
but there’s something out there still.
And she knows, yeah she knows
there’s an awful lot of beauty in this world


As I’m typing, I can’t help noticing the small red lines on the back of my wrist. Evidence of yesterday’s mistakes. Won’t be too long before they’re gone,...