Today I drew a butterfly on my ankle. I named it Mikaela (or Mikayla). I named it this because Mikayla is my niece’s name. I spelled it the other way because that’s the girl that I really like. She doesn’t know I like her, but I know she cuts too. Or she used to. I think it will make me want to let it live even more knowing that it represents two people instead of one. I really hope I can make it. I don’t want to kill it. Well I guess we’ll see how it goes. Wish me luck. =]

so my girlfriend is starting to get more depressed and so am i....i think i should cut again...

So i haven't cut in awhile...good right?...not really...while i haven't been cutting, i started drinking and smoking and crying a lot

Cried myself to sleep.. Woot... Fucked up,, Was in a bitchy mood, and no matter what I did, I couldn't stop myself from hurting her.. Now she says she's going to make it so no one can ever hurt her again... She wouldn't tell me what she meant by that.. She said she was tired and went to "bed"

I better talk to her today... I need to know if she hates me as much as I hate myself right now.. I can't fucking believe I made her cry.. I just wanna die.
I hate this. Why...

“There is something you must always remember. you are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. but the most important thing is, even if we're apart.. i'll always be with you and always care about you.”

T-R-I-G-G-E-R-E-D.
By nothing at all.
Bleed.
Drink.
Overdose.
Done.

Thishastostop.

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