365 days and 19 hours ago I honestly thought I'd never wake up if I fell asleep.
I can't believe it was a year ago. It doesn't feel that long since I wanted to die. At the same time, feels like this has been going on forever.
If I had died, I wonder what would have happened.
If it had worked, I wonder who'd have noticed.

Every high has an equal low. I didn't believe it until today. Someone told me that I was bad at one of the ONLY things that kept me happy. Another failure in my life. After an amazing day yesterday I got in an argument with a teacher. Why? For standing up for myself when he told me I was bad at the violin. Fuck you. I was so pissed all day. There was my low. I didn't even eat today. Not like I eat any other day, but I was going to today. Everyone thinks me not eating is a joke. It's really not,...

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TeenHelp Newsletter #12 - March 15th 2011 - http://www.teenhelp.org

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For once I am actually kinda glad that I live in Scotland. At least I can UNDERSTAND our education system. I'm thinking of going to study Psychology at college in England because the course looks amazing and it covers bits about being psychic in the second year which fascinates me. But it's so bloody complicated! God.
I already emailed the college because their requirements only had GCSEs and I wanted to know if my Scottish grades would be okay since there was nothing about that. Point 1:...

I realized something today, I don't need the butterfly project. Oh and about that I don't know if it really worked, once Mikaela faded I forgot all about it. But, anyway I don't need it. I realized that every time I feel like cutting I already do something to take my mind off of it. I realized that I write on my homework. Not like my name or the actual work, but I write smile all over it or my favorite bands, but every time I make sure I write a huge SMILE somewhere I know my teacher will see it....

I feel so stupid. Sitting in the college library, I don't want to be here. At all. Only way I could handle staying is with a sharp object. A very sharp object. But I didn't bring anything with me. I'm trying to get by the want need to always have something sharp with me.
This is so ridiculous. I'm only at college ONE day per week and I can't even handle that. I keep thinkIng about walking out. Goig into Hamilton. Maybe to the cinema. Anything to keep me busy and distracted. Holding off until...

I'm such a wreck today. I was working from just after 7 last night until around midnight/1am at the bar. It was a charity function and it was really busy so I was exhausted. Didn't sleep till around 3am and my parents dragged me up to go to church this morning (Cause you know, I'm so religious and everything. )
Had a horrible dream about L last night. I haven't seen him in over a year and I stopped going to the parties and stuff because he was starting to really scare me. But he was in...

I've been thinking lately about moving out and never really looked into it. Today I got a great website from a certain LHO who was very helpful. And the people there referred me to another site which was more focussed on my area. Through that I found THIS wonderful page which told me all about living costs. Which is excellent. Since I'm looking for a job, I figured it'd be helpful to have an idea of how much I might need to save and what kind of hours I'd need to work to be able to afford to

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I'm sitting here, not even knowing why I'm. This week is been the worst possible week I've ever had. And now becca and I broke up. I don't want to be done with her. But tbh its either gonna happen now or later. Not really a point in dragging it out.

I havn't hurt this much in a long time. It feels like I'm being sucker punched in the gut repeatedly. And being stabbed, can't forget the stabbing.

Right now I can't decide if I'm going to just lock everything up and not feel...