I hate being ugly.
I hate being fat.
I hate being horrible.
I hate being me.

[quote=Hopeyyy;664142]I just want somebody to make me laugh or smile? Please put some jokes or funny stories on hereee. Reply. Love yuu guys:dem

I heard your voice today(in the merories, memories) I relived the moments. I retasted the tears.
I am not asleep, I am not awake, not after the way you loved me.
Everywhere I go I see a memory. Im so lost and lonely.
i need someone who nolonger wants me.
LET ME OUT OF THIS DREAM.
Cant yuu see wat yurr doing to me?
I keep running into walls that I cant break down. I keep seeing a dream thats covered in a mist. I keeping wishes that will never come true....

Sometimes I am sad. Sometimes I am angry. Sometimes I am happy. Ok, so your average person, right? Nooopppe! I need help on what to feel. I am never fully one of these things.I'm unemotional. It is like I do not have any feeling at all. Except when I break down and cry, and cry..and cry. I dont know if anyone can understand. But if you do. Please help. :/

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TeenHelp Newsletter #15 - June 15th 2011 - http://www.teenhelp.org

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Wow, it's been a coupla years. I know at least two people will read this (xxx) anyway, so...

Life.

What I'm really here to write about is...oops. No reason. I'll just copy the last idea I had.

Envy!
1. Tco. You've worked your ass off, and you're happily off to university. You're gonna zoom away from me in the writing stakes. Better teach me some stuff.
2. Jessy. It's over for you. And, whether you believe it or not, you're getting good grades....

I don't even know whats going on with me lately, i just feel so distant and confused. I don't understand myself anymore, let alone anyone else understanding me. I'm trying to hard to stay calm and composed through everything, to stay strong and tell myself it will be okay in the end: but i'm slowly losing this battle, i can't hold on for much longer, i'm breaking.
Watching my boyfriend...

He never knew,
What he was doing.
Slid her down,
Never knowing.
The safeness he provided.
...
He held her close,
And loved her the most,
But his most wasn't good enough.
She couldn't take another him.
The one who left,
The one who caused the cries.
...
He never knew,
She wouldn't tell,
Never let the world knew,
Her secret well,
She drowned in sorrow,
Baked in strife.
...

I wish people cared for me like that.
Say that they were proud, hold me tight.
But no, just darkness;
cold darkness.
I wish people would help me
when I need it the most.
But no, just darkness;
sweet darkness.
I wish that someone would say they loved me,
smile when I smile, hold my hand.
But no, just darkness;
caressing darkness.
Thank you darkness for always being here for me.

Don't you just love good days? I do! I get them, and when I do I feel on top of the world! I love it! I'm sitting here and I'm happy, I've been happy all day! I got up at like 9.00 and I've been good ever since. I'm not even dreading school anymore! I'm excited! Seeing my friends, preparing for an exam, its all so good! eveything is so good! I s'posse I'm only posting this to say whoopee! for the good days!