the girl i love, her rapist got out of jail a couple days ago, shes in pain, i can tell, she wont admit it, but she is.

I've just applied to be a buddy.
I hope I get the position.
I tried really hard on that form.

I hate it here!
I just want to leave now, better or not!

Just stop talking to me mom, stop telling me how stupid i am. Don't you think i already know that...

Why did they have to find me, why couldn't they have let me go.. it would have hurt less..

I feel like i'm getting worse, i want them to leave me so i can just go, but they won't >_< there's no point, they know i'm just going to try again at some point :/

you can never completely leave an addiction behind, i know people hear this a lot, but until you've experienced it, you don't know what its like, smelling the smell of the powder, feeling the metal against your skin, inhaling the smoke, feeling the warmth go down your throat....

I don't want to go to the school prom. That might sound like the least of my worries right now, but the cuts on my arm and shoulder will show, which will spoil the night for my boyfriend, and everyone will think I'm just attention seeking.

I wanted to take a load of pills. Overdose on something. I don't know why. Just so something can happen, I guess. Instead of constantly feeling like I'm suspended between emotions. Then if I die, no more feeling trapped. And if I live, then someone...

fuck love, just really, fuck it, im sick and tired of either a)getting played or b)having to share you, so either make up your goddamn fucking mind or im gone, ughhhhhh!

I cut the other night. Sitting in the bath, watching the blood run down my arm and mix with the water. It was hypnotising, but the water was red by the time I got out.

He hated that I'd done it. Tried to make me promise I'd never do it again. But I don't know. It would be nice not to have to, but when I get to that stage where my body feels like it's tearing itself apart from the inside, I just don't know what else to do.

Yuu said yuu would be there for me.
everyone said that, but they all left. I never wanted to open up to anyone.....I guess I was a fool, falling for the sweet words yuu whispered in my ears...
such beatuiful lies.
yuu sayed yuud be there but yuu lied too

And guess what? Im just in a "Fukk Yuu!!!" Mood
I have tol many emtions

So surperised I aint sad. Im just fukkinqq mad. I fell it for yuu. Not once, not twice,...

It because I believe everyone has a purpose. Sometimes we dont find it for a while or we loose it. But we always have that reason for a purpose. Thats why miracles happen. Youre just not ready to go yet. Sometimes people have to go to give a person a purpose. So, yes, everyone has a purpose, therefore I believe in everyone. ♥

I feel like shit. Me and my ex are talking and I dont know if to cry, cut or slam my fkking head into a wal
Danqqa.....I want to tell him I love him so fuckong much. I want to beqq for him. Damn it everything is screaming yes Nd everything is screaming no FUCKKKKKKKK UGHHH