In January, after texting some Tinder guy for about 3 weeks, I decided to meet him. It was pretty sketchy, and I should be grateful for the fact that he was who he said he was and, you know, didn't kill me. He said I could meet him at his apartment or we could meet up at the Starbucks across the street from his place. In addition to that, he lived 30-40 minutes away so I would be driving the farthest I've ever driven myself from home, going to meet up with a stranger. Not the wisest thing...

I've been doing rather a lot of thinking about my degree recently. The module I'm doing right now is making me miserable, at best. I know that I could be putting a lot more into it and that's my fault for not just kicking the laziness and putting some hours in when I get home from work. But I'm at the point where I'm doing so badly in the module that even getting top marks for my last two essays and exam won't really bring my grade up anyway so there's no point. Even when I try really hard on something...

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TeenHelp Newsletter #85 - April 19th 2017 - http://www.teenhelp.org

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I still don't know what happened to drive you to the point of needing to go the hospital and it leaves me confused. You seemed pretty fine when I was hanging out with you earlier the day before and then that night when I was at someone else's dorm and ended up throwing up there, it seems like everything broke loose. I said that I wouldn't be at breakfast because I wanted to make sure that was the last of it and you flipped out and said nobody cared about breakfast anyway, even though there are times...

This whole friend thing got me fucked up.
I feel like I gotta watch everything I post on social media just so it won't tick off people. I have to be as careful as some kid who just added their parent to social media. That means no talking about people, no ironic edgy jokes, none of that. Just me and my fucking boring outside life.
Meanwhile, my therapist seems to be siding with the friend issue and denies I'm desperate for friends. Which is a total lie, I am fucking desperate for friends...

So one of my best friends is bipolar and she's been pretty depressed since the semester started. She went off her meds too because they were making her feel worse and she got frustrated and all that.

It all came to a tipping point on Sunday and I'm not really sure what happened to cause it. I had thrown up in my other friend's dorm Sunday night and so I mentioned in a group chat I have with the depressed friend that I wouldn't be going to breakfast because even though I felt better...

I have some to unpack. It's about friends and the feeling of losing my mind again.
I should listen to my therapist and seriously go to sleep right now but I need to write about the people I know in a space where I know they won't see.
So, let's just start with friends. I invited them to come with me to buy groceries and Erin refused while Thor ignored. Later, I see on snapchat that they're both at Kailoni's birthday party when Erin said they'll be heading home at that time so they...

TeenHelp Newsletter #84 - March 20th 2017 - http://www.teenhelp.org

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I normally write everything out on Wattpad but the update made it go all shitty. On Wattpad, my not so private diary is on there for people to read, I put in the date and the time I start writing it. Wattpad isn't cooperating with me so I'm writing on here instead. I neeeeeeed to write.

Today 3 years ago, I attempted suicide. It was my fourth attempt in like 2 years. I had a tough time, struggling with loads of things - my anxiety, my depression, my self harms, my paranoia and to...

This week we paid the final balance for our holiday cottage! It's official! We're going on holiday in 30 days!!
I've never been on holiday with my mum and her sisters before so it will be interesting.
I haven't seen York for years, although I really loved visiting it before. It's been about 5 years now so I don't remember that much. Just the parts I saw more often like certain little shops and tourist things and some random little details and stuff. Like why they called this one street...