Camp sucked.
The first day they asked our opions on the "gays". Everyone said either their going to hell, or their horrible people. When it was my turn I said I was bi. So then everyday during free time I had to read the bible (probably wasn't a good idea to tell them I was an athiest)
We also had a 2 hour swim everyday. The first day I sat on the dock, No problem. The second day Jordan (some idiot from camp) asked why I wasn't swimming, So I told him I couldn't swim....

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J is coming over soon, so this will be my last post for just under a week.

I'll miss it here.

I feel like such a part of a community. I've made some great friends and I love helping out with people's problems.

I've applied for a secondary position, but I think my application was a bit weak, so I doubt I'll get it, but I plan to stay here for a while so even if I don't I'll be able to try again at some point.

But yeah. I love it here....

Nightmares. Constant. Last night was horrible. Got a good 11 hours or so of sleep and I'm still exhausted.
Was dreaming about my cousin. We were in the pool with a load of other people and she refused to leave me alone. She kept grabbing me. Hurting me. Pulling me under the water. Pinning me down. Pulling off my swimsuit and touching me. I was so scared and nothing I did would get her off me. No matter how much I cried and screamed and shouted and kicked out, no one paid any attention....

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Packing for tomorrow. Perhaps I'll feel better when I take a break. I hope so, anyway.

I wanted to do more on TH today but I haven't got the time. I've done a shit load of VMs though. I love being on staff.

I'm worried about the summer, though. Will I have to take too much time off that I can't stay on staff? I don't want this taken away from me.

Perhaps when I leave home things won't be so bad. Perhaps, instead of destroying myself, I could just get help straight away? Perhaps I'll finally be able to find someone who will listen.

It's not likely though. Why do people ignore me? Why won't people help me even if I go to them for help? Why am I on my own?

Why do I feel like I can't face anything? I can't just do things because I have no motivation. Even the things I want to do. Because I don't really want to do anything. I just want to sleep. Sleep forever.

She's bang out of order, how dare she make me feel guilty to the point of crying that I don't want to be an optometrist. If I don't want to do it then I shouldn't be made to feel guilty!

Everyone changes their mind, I don't even need to have a job in mind at this age. Urg she's a fucking bitch! As if I'd let her work for me, I don't want to see her again and af if I care about getting a job?

I don't plan on living that long anyway! She hasn't a clue about me, sometimes...

I really want him to stop with this, stop with the paranoia and thinking i am going to cheat on him. I would never hurt him like that, i love him too much.
Can't he treat me with respect for once and not take everything out on me, I hate the bruises and the pain.
He asked me if i loved him and when i said yes said he didn't believe me; if i didn't love him would i put up with all of his crap and even though he has hurt me so much still be here if him no matter what!?
He...