Where is the hope that's in my name??
Did it run away? Run away so far, that it didn't even have to hide in order for itself not to be found?

I need to figure this out. Things are changing. I need to find out who I am. Where I am headed. What my goal is. It is hard to feel lost. But I am trying. Trying so hard.

My grades fell at the last minute. I had all As. Now there all Cs. I have a D in math. Because I failed one quiz. Just one. I m such a failure. ...

Posh just won
Scrappy game
Relived though
Still not happy
Good stuff happens and I still want to kill myself

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Yesterday, was such a great day with my Batman.
Haha, I call him Batman, and he calls me catwoman. Haha! After our Drama practice, we sat outside and the sun was at the perfect angle, setting and shining on us. I put my head in his shoulder & we made a heart with our hands. And we kissed, and contiued kissing. (No tongue you dirty minds! )

And then today I'll see him afterschool, just for a few minutes

And and and and thhheenn...

Don't know what to say...
Another exam to fail tomorrow...
English
Already done half, didn't write much...
None that I can keep...
Don't know what to write...
Did shit in French...
Mother rang school... Embarassing!
And now my teacher's going to talk to me... Awkward!
All she'll do is tell me not to worry, you can still pass,
When I blates won't get an A so who cares...
I'll just go silent and let her talk... I still want to kill...

I am SO excited.
Today, Nolan said he would kiss me tomorrow, alone.
I can't wait. It's goung to be special.


He also kissed my hand..a guy has never done that.

What part of your body is most affected by it?
My upper thigh is affected the most. I started out on my arm, but I started doing it more often, so it became harder to cover up. I don't wear shorts that come above my knees, so I did it on my thigh. I did it on my arm a few months ago when I tried to kill myself, though. Even though my family found out i cut, only my boyfriend has found out about my thigh. I have too many scars there and I don't want anyone to see them. My boyfriend saw them...

I know people say they love me
I know it should help and it kind of does
But how do I know they're telling the truth?
People lie all the time
Why should it be any different with me?

Shit

I know I'm nothing special, I know I'm the same as everyone else, an equal.
But this is such shit

Wish I was never born.
Wish I could escape.
Why would anyone want to have a child?
Why would they want to cause pain and suffering?...

So, saw Nolan in Drama today.
We sat in the back seats of our auditorium (stage) place, by ourselves.
He said he knew about me not eating. So, I told him I ate today, but I also said I'd binge it.
He said he knew I wrote goodbye letters to everyone. So, I told him, I used to cut.
He started tearing up. Yepp, I'm positive tears came out of his eyes. It made me sick to my stomach. He hasn't cried since April, he isn't a very emotional man. He explained to me that everyone...

Let me start with: I do not believe in the bible or organised religion and I am not trying to offend anyone, it's just my opinion.
Anyway, a bible basher came to the door.
Apparently this person can tell you what happens when you die and how to be happy.
"God never causes what is wicked." So God created all humans. God therefore created Hitler. Hitler was obviously a good man, then.
It also says that "...this promised future includes perfect health...