I was talking to my friend Eskie...
We had asked what are biggest fears were.
I lied to him.
I said that heights, and the being in the dark alone were my biggest fears. No. Even though they are my fears..


My biggest fear is two kids can't be happy. My little half brother and sister. I am terrified for them. My mother has destroyed them. They don't even love me....
Know me....
I wish they could be happy..
I love you guys, when...

Sometimes a photo or drawing can make a subject more clear. I ran across this drawing on the Internet, and it very closely shows my situation at home. In fact, I was surprised at how close the figure in the drawing resembles my Mom. Anyway, parents use a variety of methods to discipline their kids. Spanking is used in my family when my Mom thinks that I have gone over the line. You may agree or disagree with her methods, but at least I hope to show visually what happens with me from time to time...

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About a week ago, as I was walking home from school, I was asked by two girls from my geometry class, who came up beside me, to help them with some of the math problems. I reluctantly agreed to stop off at one of the girl's homes and called my Mom from there. However, after we were done going over the problems, the girl sitting on my right on the couch reached over and began to rub my legs and then my crotch through my jeans. I could feel myself getting a hard-on. She unzipped my jeans and pulled...

I'm just running around in circles, losing control. I don't know what to do anymore, I'm breaking and i don't think i can hold on any longer >_<

I can't take this anymore.
I'm giving up, baby.
Nobody can help me.
I just want this to be over.
I want LIFE to be over.
I want AIR to be over.
I want WAR to be over.
I want EVERYTHING to be over.
I have been fighting for my life all along, and these scars show nothing gained. I'm living a nightmare.
I fucking want it to end.
What do you know!?
YOU THINK YOU KNOW HOW I FEEL?!?!?!!! NO YOU FUCKING DON'T! THERES NO WAY YOU...

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Scars *sigh* the only thing i hate more is people who tell you they are there for you and dont mean it -.-" why is it so hard? sometimes i wish i had the guts to drive the steel just a little deeper let it bleed for just a little bit longer. These are the times when you go lose the bad thoughts in good ones with your best friend, to bad mine bailed. The only thing keeping me going is Casey and now she cant get online because her dad shut down their internet. Just my luck. mean while my mom...

I'm so tired. I woke up this morning and wanted to cry. Didn't make it into class. Checked this week's work and did in the silent study room off the 3rd floor library. Finished early and went home.
My brother's been off sick all week, I'm worried about him. He's been getting headaches for a while but Monday he said he had a bad headache, was dizzy, and felt sick. The doctor checked him over and couldn't find anything wrong, but he has some pills to take with paracetamol/ibuprofen every few...

Today. Monday, Novemember 14, 2011
Was a weird day. I almost forgot I was alive for awhile, it felt good. I put on a mask && I really felt like was conpletely different person. It's weird, really. I find myself being myself around Travis. It is completely unnatural. He's my buddie. But. He kissed my cheek today. It was odd. But I ignored it. Haha. I like being buddies with him. He makes me feel like I can be my true, real self and he will still accept me. But everyonee thinks I like...