It flew by extremely fast. im not sure what ive gotten myself into with this "spice" shit. I wasted $40 on it. managed to float by all week. Some things i remember? falling down a lot, yelling at my boss, and sneaking off to smoke. I need to find some help i think. Today i feel numb.

I am trying to be happy.
I am trying to show myself.
I am trying.
I am trying.
I am trying.




Whenever I feel imperfect like this..I admit it, I listen to Hannah Monantas song, "Nobodys Perfect"
I dont care what anyone says, she makes me feel worth something.

Still struggling a lot but i'm super excited for Tuesday
My friend M asked me if I wanted to go to London with her and watch Russell Howard's good news being filmed. I absolutely love this guy and I'm so excited. Me and M are going to spend the day in London too. So Tuesday should be good
Also I'm getting my braces off tomorrow if all goes to plan. (: About time too

Still feeling...

I'm fucking everything up and I can't stop myself...
What's wrong with me?
I say I'm going to help... Don't ask why
I get so pissed I can't and have to leave before I regret something...
All she did was say my pudding was yummy.
Hate being shit at everything. Hate being a cruel, useless waste of space.
I know why I'm annoyed...
Because she said suicide is the ultimate act of selfishness..
Fuck Off! What does she know?

School tomorrow.....

hmm shes starting to piss me off, maybe i should spend less time with her? i dont know, i spend like everyday but the weekend with her, and she pisses me off a lot, hmmm less time during the week or hell i dont know,

got plastered today, starting at 930 am, got away from pain for awhile, its back, i dont know what to do, should i cut? drink more? i dont know, i might just give up weed and start up drinking or cutting again, i have no clue man, my head is messed up

I'm speechless
Feel numb, like I'm easily going to be triggered
Dreading school on Monday
People are going to laugh at me as they saw me in town today, after the match, in my gear.
So close to recovery, don't think I could take that
Almost kissed her today... on the 3rd goal from a 3-0 down comeback (we lost 4-3) and I think she knows
I fucking love her and she knows
I wish she loved me back...
I wish she wasn't as straight as a pole...
I wish...

I have this sitting beside me right now. My brother and I are splitting on the price of that and some wine to give to my dad for Christmas. Inside you fill out every day the date and time, duration, unusual characteristics, and draw a picture of your poo. I think he'll like it. You even get a cool poo fact for every day and there's loads of interesting information at the start of the book. Consider this my revenge for...

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