Haha. Like, I didn't already have enough problems?! The other day.. I found out that my sister had cockroaches in her apartment. :/ Then, she apparently brought them to my house. And, she's had them for years. WTF. AND, I just found one crawling around in the kitchen!!! OH GOODNESS.... EWWW. Like, I don't already have enough eating problems. Now, I barely want to eat. And, apparently... you have to clean like crazy to keep them away. Well, that's gonna be a fucking problem, cause my dad is the...

Can't sleep because I can't fully calm down. I start getting there then I get worked back up again. Haven't been this bad in ages. I even get the urge to cry and nothing ends up coming out

Help me be strong, guys.
I don't know what to do. I have been crying all night. And you know...I am so used to it.
Just ...encouraging words?

I've decided it must just be me :/
Today so far I have been told to f off, called some really nasty names and told to go and cut myself in chat.
I have been blamed for banning someone from chat when i evidently didn't. :/

I really gets to me >_<

Okay, so you text me. Right? I didn't know what for. You apparently just wanted to say Merry Christmas. But, I figured you out. Hunny, I know you too well. You were coming down to where I live this weekend? HA. You seriously think I don't know your little plan? I guess the thing that you think I'm only good for. Well, sad news for you.. I'M NOT HAVING...

I know I'm only fifteen. I know that I have quite some time left to figure this stuff out. I know that labels are just made by society and things change, that you don't always fit into one label. I was talking to someone on here tonight and he really helped me with that and I really appreciate that. This person hopefully knows who I am talking about, and if he stumbles across this, thank you so much.
I really would love to know who the fuck I am, though. A lot of the time I think that I am...

So, Jose broke up with me laat night. In a text message.
He said we could date after New Years but we need a break because his parents tradition.
What tradtion?!
I just said "k".
I don't think I want to be with him again. I know I do not want to talk to him.

But you guys all know Alan, Bryans (Ex of 4 years) best friend?
Yeah, he said he like me yesterday.
We talked about so much. I never stopped liking Alan. Duh. He was the only...

I don't know how many people are going to actually read this shit, but oh well, posting it anyway. Good way to get out how I feel.

I went to my therapy intake on Wednesday. The lady that did my intake won't even be my actual therapist. She was okay enough, anyway, nice enough. Before we could even get in to see her, we had to do a shitload of paperwork. Actually, what I had to do wasn't that long, basically circle what applied to me and how long ago I felt that way (like in the past...