Okay, this title doesn't make sense. Whoop-de-friggin-do. Okay, so it actually means I have this blog about a bunch of things with mixed emotions on them.

Today I had a talk with the student teacher rep person, or whatever the fuck she is. I think it's more the "I'll tell all the important people when something important is happening" person.... Or maybe that's just the way it is right now. My school is a stupid place. It's shaped like a swatsicka. We can't have a LGBT and...

Urgh I'm so pathetic, all he did was grab my arm and squeeze it, i don't know why i started crying. You're so pathetic Charli...

All i want to do lately is cut and all i think about it dying, I'm ridiculous....

So hungry >_< Family ate without me again last night but thought i had eaten and said i was being greedy eating again.
I feel really sick and dizzy, all i ate yesterday was an orange and an apple, please let me eat properly today dad :/

well my girlfriend is pissing me off a lot latley, over politics, over friends, over everything really, i mean she ditched me to go hang with some other people, and she just pisses me off, so im just gonna stop talking to her for two days, see what happens, she just pisses me off, like i dont want to break up with her but at the same time i do, ya know?

I really don't want to hear about how you think suicide is selfish or that people to attempt it are strange and you don't care... thanks sir, great Maths lesson.

Proves my point that people don't care, cutting would help so much right now..need more pills too..

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I had a pretty good week last week I guess. Nothing major happened. But yet this week, still nothing has happened and I find my negative thoughts have returned.

My motivation has been down the toilet for a while but yet I still get upset when I don't do well on something. I haven't felt any strong emotions but yet I'm still sitting here thinking all negatively. I'm a failure who will never get anywhere and I feel ugly and wish I could get hit by the nearest bus or something because...

I have awesome-sauce-um news! it's cool, like, cool cool cool.

Today I found out that I'm in music! I enjoy it, because, duh, we're learning how to play the guitar! So far I've learned a little bit. We have a weird name, and well, we don't have the usual teacher because she's pregnant again... Last year she was pregnant with her first child, and now she's pregnant with another kid...

^^ I'm. Going. To. Ask. Astornauts. In. Spage. A. Question! Yea, Yea, Go George, Go...

No one cares, no one wants you around Charli.... You might aswell just go...

It's not like anyone would notice

Well this will probably be the first positive blog of mine.
I decided that life is worth living, and i want to get better. I know it's gonna be hard but i actually might make it. I haven't had suicidal thoughts for 5 days. I know it may not be a big achievement but it is to me. I hope the thoughts don't come back. The voices haven't gone away.

Im sick. I hate being sick. Had to stay home. I can't even stay at home alone anymore. Maybe someday.