I didn't mean to get a B in my essay, I tried really hard on it. I try so hard to make my parents proud, everything i do i try so hard to please them, to try and be less of a dissapointment.
I guess I'm just not good enough, I'm sorry mom.. :/

if you never chase your dreams, you will never catch them.

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I feel like crying. I've felt that way all day.
I'm stuck in this scary world. I feel like it's gonna end every second.
I don't even see the point in making plans for next year.. when, I might not even make it there.
It gets really scary. Being stuck by yourself. Thinking of how it would be to be consumed in flames. The temperature so high it eats away at your flesh. Your insides just melting away. The world just pitch dark and the fire to soon bring it light. And, all you...

Hey.

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So... Today is Friday,
and I'm chillin' like a vilian until eight, and then I'm going to go off and watch a doc. about apocolyptic theries... Which is awesome, because I haven't heard about the show being on in a while!

I'm writing a fiction based on some things in my life right now, which isn't something I've done before!

O.O
I've found out that this cute girl that works at the movies here goes to my school! (Duh,...

Really bad day.
Think I'm gonna drop out of college.
Tutor's pissed with me.
Been carrying a blade about with me.
My card was rejected twice because Amazon haven't refunded me like they were supposed to so I can't get my train tickets.
I could feel a girl who went to my school staring at me on the bus which just scared the hell out of me.
Everything seemed to go wrong. On impulse I went into Asda and bought stuff I really shouldn't have. Made plans and set...

I thought i was getting better, but then today 1 little bad comment someone made to me i got depressed again. I almost started crying. Every little negative comment gets me either crying or wanting to cry. I don't know what to do.. Anybody have any idea's?

I still haven't had any suicidal thoughts for about 6 days. The thoughts of cutting are getting worse. Just want to see the blood, and feel the pain. Just have blood running down my arm. Just to make the sadness and voices go away....

I had my physical today.

My blood pressure is high. This could be because of my birth control. I'm scared that I'll have to stop taking it. It was working so well on my periods already, I don't want to go back to not using any. =/

They also tested my hearing and it wasn't as good as it should be. I may have a problem hearing with my right ear.

Both of these things mean I have to go back to the doctor in a month. Now I can't help but be worried.

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Charli..Learn when to fuck off, no one likes you, no one wants you here. You're a waste of space, a waste of people's time..

Okay, this title doesn't make sense. Whoop-de-friggin-do. Okay, so it actually means I have this blog about a bunch of things with mixed emotions on them.

Today I had a talk with the student teacher rep person, or whatever the fuck she is. I think it's more the "I'll tell all the important people when something important is happening" person.... Or maybe that's just the way it is right now. My school is a stupid place. It's shaped like a swatsicka. We can't have a LGBT and...