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I did it again. I cut. On the arm. Only once but still. I have NO excuse whatsoever as to how I could have gotten a cut there. Fuck. I really can't lose my phone and my computer, I really can't be grounded. I just can't do this. Even with worrying about getting caught I am calmed down now, because the SH calms me and that's why I DO this, and I probably won't worry too much more about it as soon as I find a valid excuse for why it's there, but still. It's really not a bad cut either, not too deep...

Spent the night and most of today freaking out because I was dreaming that a girl I used to be friends with had her hands all over me and was trying to kiss me when I clearly didn't want her to. I spent my whole dream running from her and woke up feeling like I'd just run a marathon. Been jumping and freaking at every little noise in case it's her.
I don't know why, I haven't seen or heard from her in two years. Not since she lied about being raped and came out as lesbian two months before...

I really don't know why I feel so shitty right now. Monday was fine enough, Tuesday I had to take two statewide tests and a final for science. I almost had a breakdown in science class that day, pretty much I threw my pen down and came super close to crying, calling myself a failure, the whole nine yards. Wednesday I was just under stress and whatever, like I have been for a while now. I was supposed to have therapy today but the coolant line in our car broke and so we had to cancel the appointment....

In the past weeks i reallized my counsellor wasnt helping me much. I told my parents and today was my last appointment with her. Im starting a new therapist next week.I don't even want a new one. :/
I don't know if im really getting better or not. Somedays i feel fine, then others i feel suicidal again. Or daytime i feel happier, night i feel horrible.
I have off school for the rest of the week and my parents still don't trust me.. I wish i could be trusted..

Went to the hospital today to see the ENT doctor.
Had to have my hearing tested which was really weird xD But it was all good. Then in with the doctor i just mentioned that i have trouble breathing through my nose. He looked and shoved some funy metal stick up my nose which really hurt, and said that my one nasal cavity is open and fine, but due to me breaking my nose a few times, my nose is wonky and the other one is less than half the size.

So for now I have nasal spray but...

Last fall, I had a couple of entries in the Sex and Puberty forum area related to my encounter with a couple of girls on my way home from school. It started out with me helping them with their math problems at one of the girl's homes, but also soon led to me getting a handjob or a blowjob twice a week from one or other, a visiting foreign exchange student. It was a pleasant time for me, but it finally ended about a month ago. I felt that there was no need to mention anything here, but I've had a...

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For my first actual blog: Books to Read (before you die)

I have a stack of books taller than me that I really want to read (and those are just the books that I own). I’ve been searching the web for a list of books that I should read before I die, and found quite a few different lists. (In fact, there is actually a book called 1001 Books You Must Read Before You Die). Some lists are just American classics; others list books that go as far back as Homer’s The Iliad, and The...

Hello everyone!

I believe that this will be my first "visible" blog posting. YAY!

I've been wanting to start a blog for a while, but I could never seem to figure out what I want to write about. So I guess I'll just write about what ever comes to my mind (kind of like a non-personal journal).

Maybe I've been puting it off because I don't think that anyone will read these, but I don't really care anymore, I just want to write.

If you...