So I just read through all my past blog entries (which are just over two years old) and in them I was obsessed with Laura. What a joke. We broke up (for good) in November 2010, our last contact was at the Disputes Tribunal in April 2011, and we've had no contact since. I've also remained single since then. Which is a good thing.

(Was somewhat interrupted to attend to the matter of dinner. Has now been dealt with.)

Uh . . . I'm not entirely sure what I was going to make...

Well done Charli you fucking idiot. The one good thing that kept you going that gave you hope and you've ruined it.
Theres no point, just go through with your plans, it's not like anyone cares.....

pills...

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It's constantly a struggle to avoid doing anything to harm myself. I have to stop whatever I am doing and tell myself that I am better than this. I am loved and have people who care about me. At times it feels like its the only way. It's not. It NEVER will be. I need to be here years from now to tell my younger brother that he shouldn't date that girl. I need to be here years from now to tell my older sister how proud I am that she graduated from college. I need to be here years from now to tell...

Everything is just crashing down around me. I'm fed up of family and the arguments and no one caring. I don't see the point anymore, there is no point for me.

Yay, Easter! I'll have some fun drawing funny faces on all the Easter eggs, and I'll have more fun hiding the eggs from my little cousins in places so hard they'll go insane trying to find them.

Along with my aunt and uncle and cousins, Jon will be joining us for Easter. He'll be helping me watch and play with my little cousins. Poor guy will be dead by the end of the day. For Easter I got the kids bunny rabbit plushies, and mom got them chocolate. For Jon the big bear, I got a...

Hello everybody.

I'm pretty much ready to cry. I feel like every fiber of my being is a lie. I'm not strong, I may seem like it, but I'm not. I'm not smart, I have to work for it. I'm not good with people, I have to force myself to say things. I'm not female, I just look like it. I'm not male, I just want to be, through.

I feel like I'm a lie. That stating that I'm female or male are both lies. I have the body of a female, but I feel that I'm male. Yet I can't say I'm...

I don't want to go back to sleep...scares me..I can't face the nightmares...

Him screaming and screaming, I can't stop it, can't stop the pain I can't stop him hurting >_<

I shouldn't feel this down.
It's wrong, selfish, unneccessary.

cut cut cut.... pills...

Die Charli