I like rain. It's been waaaaaay too warm for April so the rain's nice, it's cooling down the weather somewhat, which is pleasant.

On the other hand, I have my period, which is currently incredibly painful, and I don't have any painkillers. I may have to talk to the doctor about that, I remember I used to take Ponstan and it was really good for getting rid of period pain.

I handed in my resignation today. I'm going back on Wednesday to return my uniform and stuff. I'm...

I don't know how many of you have noticed how down I have gotten lately. I had relapsed with my SH 4 or 5 days in a row, something I usually don't do. Yesterday broke that cycle and today has been good so far.

I've been dreading answering the phone, getting annoyed when I do, and I've noticed myself distancing from people I talk to, whether it is on MSN or here. So, for all of you who may have noticed this, I'm so, so sorry. Sometimes I even dread it when people hug me or touch me,...

Panicking, can't breathe properly and i'm shaking.
I feel like something really bad is going to happen but i don't know what. I'm so scared. >_<

I'm so tired of initiating conversations. I'm through with trying. What's the point? My "friends" don't bother with me they make pathetic excuses just to avoid spending time with me. *I just don't understand what's so wrong with me. I try to be polite. I never ever let anyone know I'm struggling. I listen and try to talk to people yet no one has time for me. I wish I knew why but all I know is I'm not going to bother anymore. What's the point in mindless talk when it just gets thrown back...

Help help help help... Help me

Please, I can't fight any longer :/

When you've lost weight! Wooo! Even cooler because I really haven't been doing anything, so it must be something in the way I'm eating - which also doesn't make sense because my eating and sleeping are all over the place at the moment. Still, I'm not complaining.

It wasn't a large amount of weight. And I can't say how much due to the rules about posting weight numbers. But I was surprised and pleased.

How did this come about?

I decided to weigh my cat...

So I rang WINZ. They're sending me out an application for invalid's benefit and I have an appointment next Friday. I need to wash my gym shirt and write a resignation letter, and take it in either tomorrow or Monday. I think tomorrow would be best but I don't know if I'll be able to access the washing machine in a timely manner.

So in a few weeks (three at most) all those loose ends will be tied up, and I'll either be on the Invalid's benefit, or they'll decline it and I'll stay on...

I've been so happy for the last few days, idon't know why i'mstruggljng again.
I feel like I'm going to fall apart but I know I have to be strong.

I don't think I can do this
I need you but I'm scared to ask...

So here's the deal - at the beginning of last year, 2011, after a very messy break-up with my partner, a couple of things happened. First, I got a full-time job. Second, I realised I was losing weight. And third, I had a boyfriend who was really more of a fuckbuddy - he was good to me though and he was lots of fun to be with. So all was going well, I guess. Then I got told I had to work two 6-day weeks of 12-hr shifts, 5am-5pm. I didn't get told I was being paid overtime, so I thought I was just...

She beautiful and amazing and makes me laugh xD

This is the first time i've been this happy in ages