I still haven't been back to see my councilor. Today was my birthday but all anyone could really think about was my little sister's volleyball tournament. My older sister is getting married and moving about 8 hours away for school and I've also been stabbed in the back by my former best friend. My old best friend said she hated me and that every bad thing that happened to her at this school was my fault. She also abandoned me for home schooling instead. My big sister is the only one I feel best...

Someone from my real life just found my tumblr. I had to delete my account so she couldn't watch me. She would tell my dad what she saw. There and here is the only places i can talk about anything. Im freaking out because i don't know how much she saw. I don't know what to do.
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Got 77 strength last night. Wooo! Also, I'm pretty close to 85 HP. Probably get that tonight, finish my dust devils slayer task - I'm pretty much done, I did the majority of it last night. I'd just been putting it off for ages, then I decided I need cash in order to hire a demon butler to speed up my construction (because I recently spent about 2 mil on oak planks), and the best way to make cash aside from kingdom management is slayer.

So I been slayin', bitches.

Also...

I feel so alone, so distant from everything. I'm finding it so hard to hold on, i'm slipping back into the way i was before, feeling like my only escape is Self Harm and Pills.
Friend invited me to a party today but i'm too scared to go, I know people there don't and won't like me, I'm stupid and i suppose theres no reason for them too.

Alone, scared, need help

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