The scars are well hidden. The tears are nowhere to be seen.
The smile is placed gently on my face, yet the hurt's still tucked neatly within me. Although all the signs are well hidden, that throbbing heart continues to throb and never stops.
There's nothing that can be done and noone understands.
The day ends, the smile's gone, you stare at the scars and the tears flow endlessly. Now you have nothing to hide.
You're on your own in your bedroom. You get the sharp object...

Kay, so I'M BACK you lucky bitches! Paha, I kid. So let me tell you's a bit about me OR maybe I'll tell you a lot.. Who knows what I'll do?!
Alrightayy, So my name's Sabrina but you's can all call me Sabz Cause it makes your life AND my life easier. Therefore everyone's happy! I'm 15 and I go to high school :/ School is like the crappiest! And home's not much better. But my bestest ever friend makes me chuckle.. Lol's, seriously though, she's pretty wicked. Um, I like to sing, write...

Okay, so Hiya all Hope you're well. Um, so I have NO IDEA what you're supposed to talk about on blogs. Like, what is this strange contraption?! LOL. No, that's just wierd. So, ANYWAYY.. I guess I'll just write stuff occasionally and hope you's read, enjoy and comment. I think I might just introduce myself in my next blog entry so WARNING: I'm so cool, I might make you cry! Lol.. I kid, I'm not coool at all. So yeah, bye for now.. Make sure you read my next entry which I'll do in like 5 mins just...

Took enough pills to make me throw up...
Cutting like crazy...
Music so loud I hear a buzzing without it...
I am a fucked up mess.

Had a rough night, had a panic attack then a ended up cutting >_<
I feel bad for it now but I needed it, it helps me, I don't know what else to do anymore.

But it's okay because no one notices me, it all just reminds me how alone I am. Stupid. Stupid. Charli just face it, no one likes you, you're alone.

Sitting here feeling so lonely, so worthless and watching no one care :/

I don't know what in Hell is wrong with me today. The whole day I've just wanted to hide in my bed. Half of me wants someone there to not let me go and the other half wants to be completely alone so I can let everything out and no one will have to see it. I don't want anyone to see me that way. Ever.
People are always calling me cute and pretty. I doubt they'd say the same if they saw me with puffy eyes, soaking wet face and top, stuffy nose, screaming into my pillow and trying to remember...

She's so amazing and shes mine I still can't believe it, I still have to remind myself occasionally that it is real xD

Eeeepppp, her cute laugh makes me smile so much

Yesterday began like a typical Saturday with me helping my Dad with mowing the lawn and other yard chores. The afternoon was open, so a friend and I were out riding bikes in the neighborhood after we had played video games for a while. Somehow, I missed the fact that my Mom would be having a church gardening group meeting in the afternoon in our home. After a while, my friend and I headed to our respective homes. I put my bike in the garage and bounded into the kitchen for a snack and a cold drink....

Urghhh family meal today :/ Really don't want to go, it's just a time to critise me and go on and on and on about medical school and how theres really no other optition for me >_<

I'd rather be sitting in my room by myself but my mom said i'm anti social and selfish. I don't want to deal with everything thats going on in my family, it sounds awful but i don't care, I don't like that side of my family. I want to concentrate on myself and my studying and the people close to me :/...