Took enough pills to make me throw up...
Cutting like crazy...
Music so loud I hear a buzzing without it...
I am a fucked up mess.

Had a rough night, had a panic attack then a ended up cutting >_<
I feel bad for it now but I needed it, it helps me, I don't know what else to do anymore.

But it's okay because no one notices me, it all just reminds me how alone I am. Stupid. Stupid. Charli just face it, no one likes you, you're alone.

Sitting here feeling so lonely, so worthless and watching no one care :/

I don't know what in Hell is wrong with me today. The whole day I've just wanted to hide in my bed. Half of me wants someone there to not let me go and the other half wants to be completely alone so I can let everything out and no one will have to see it. I don't want anyone to see me that way. Ever.
People are always calling me cute and pretty. I doubt they'd say the same if they saw me with puffy eyes, soaking wet face and top, stuffy nose, screaming into my pillow and trying to remember...

She's so amazing and shes mine I still can't believe it, I still have to remind myself occasionally that it is real xD

Eeeepppp, her cute laugh makes me smile so much

Yesterday began like a typical Saturday with me helping my Dad with mowing the lawn and other yard chores. The afternoon was open, so a friend and I were out riding bikes in the neighborhood after we had played video games for a while. Somehow, I missed the fact that my Mom would be having a church gardening group meeting in the afternoon in our home. After a while, my friend and I headed to our respective homes. I put my bike in the garage and bounded into the kitchen for a snack and a cold drink....

Urghhh family meal today :/ Really don't want to go, it's just a time to critise me and go on and on and on about medical school and how theres really no other optition for me >_<

I'd rather be sitting in my room by myself but my mom said i'm anti social and selfish. I don't want to deal with everything thats going on in my family, it sounds awful but i don't care, I don't like that side of my family. I want to concentrate on myself and my studying and the people close to me :/...

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I've had a run of good days. I feel kind of guilty about this based on the amount of people suffering who frequent TH, but on the other hand, I've had my own struggles, and therefore should enjoy my good days.

Slept last night. Like properly. I wasn't too tired but it was still nice. I also "worked" last night. Olly txt me at about 3:30pm to let me know Brian was sick and asked if I could coach. I said ok. And then Rowena said to sign for my hours, so maybe I'll get paid...

What would you say if i said I was leaving everything tommorrow? Would you even care or notice, would you ever even think about me?
I'm starting to think you wouldn't, but I miss you so much.

All I've found out recently is how much people don't care, how it's okay to hurt me.
Yeah I may be bisexual and I may self harm, but it doesn't mean it's okay to call me the lesbian emo. I don't even know how they found out. I hope they leave school at the end of this year, anyway...