Hey you guys. So this is my first post in my blog, and I thought i would tell you more about me.

So my name is Paula :3, my favorite color is indigo (blueish purple), my current boyfriend is to be known on here as E, and i love music.

So today was an alright day i guess /: After lunch (i'm in high school, btw) i was in math class, and i was really depressed and was having some suicidal thoughts. && then i found a rubber band and snapped the rubber band...

Only a few more..It'll work this time.. Not like anyone cares about you Charli... it's not like anyones going to notice... Really who's going to stop you!!!

Can't sleep, feel so ill from this cold and the mixture of nose being messed up, so waiting for an operation, and having a cold is making me feel like I've been punched in the face.
Had a panic attack earlier and I'm not really sure why, was horrible >_<

Urges and feeling so low :/ what's wrong with me :/

We all have to find what our purpose in this life is...and do whatever it takes to fulfill it. When people experience hard times, they (myself included) tend to forget to appreciate all that we do have. The obstacles we face are meant to help us, make us stronger...not defeat us. Shouldn't we all just want to leave this world a better place than how we came into it? Shouldn't we all want to do what little bit we can? Shouldn't we want to help people around us?

in telling every person you know that you want something to happen, in yet you do nothing to make it so? I don't see why people just sit around and hope that things go their way. If you want something to happen, get off your butt and make it happen. Don't just hope that someone would come along and kind of do what you want. Don't hope someone will come along and somehow have the same idea as you. If you have a cause, fight for it. If you have an idea, spread it. If not, just give up and do nothing....

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My last day of school was yesterday. I have been really happy since yesterday. I missed being happy, and smiling.


As of the sometime last month i have been 4 months overdose free! I havent really wanted to as much. Im quite proud of myself.

Thats all i gotta say. Hope everyone else is doing well! <3

Urgh, stressed, tired of everything, hurting...wanting someone to tell me everything will be okay..but i'm starting to think it won't be :/

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I have a new phone! Now hopefully those people won't be able to contact me. I'm definitely not giving my new number to my 'friend'.

I'm going to try really hard to eat breakfast today. Then I'm going to hang out with my boyfriend. He said we'd go somewhere for lunch, and my challenge is to eat whatever it is. Even if it's unhealthy. Because I'm allowed a treat, and today is a treat day because I'm spending the whole day with him.

I can do this. I can eat three meals....